ME

2008-11-16T01:45:00.002+08:00

MOVED(:
please tag at my new blog too! haha.

God loves YOU.(:

2008-11-11T23:52:00.004+08:00

wahhh. simon is really a true blue HC student man.

*CPL simon ephraim amazed by the amazing grace says:
instead of 2 detailed points
*CPL simon ephraim amazed by the amazing grace says:
try writing 4 detailed but not as detailed points
*CPL simon ephraim amazed by the amazing grace says:
cos u got not enough time
*CPL simon ephraim amazed by the amazing grace says:
and u have enough points, so u want to spam
*CPL simon ephraim amazed by the amazing grace says:
and cambridge makers dont have time to read everything in detail
*CPL simon ephraim amazed by the amazing grace says:
so all those chunks of words will make them sick
*CPL simon ephraim amazed by the amazing grace says:
so write shorter but more points

i wouldnt have think about it!
this is thinking smart!
hahaha okay.
THREE MORE DAYS, TWO MORE PAPER. I CANT WAIT.(:

2008-11-08T00:17:00.002+08:00

REST IN THE MIDST OF STRESS.

I will bless the Lord forever
I will trust Him at all times
He has delivered me from all fear
He has set my feet upon a rock
I will not be moved
And I'll say of the Lord

You are my shield, my strength
my portion, deliverer
my shelter, strong tower
my very present help in time of need

Aubrey was sharing that two of her friends
got retained and they have been constantly
looking for their principal to request
for them to get promoted.
despite the countless times, the principal
still didnt allow.
until one day, when these two guys
wanted to ask their principal again.
before they went to the principal's office,
they asked their friend, who is a christian, to pray for them.
they asked their principal for a final time,
and guess what? the principal allowed them to promote.

Hannah was sharing that halfway through
math paper2 today,
she had a really bad diarrhoea.
she was stuck in the toilet for not 5 minutes,
not 10 minutes, not 15 minutes, not 20 minutes,
but TWENTY FIVE MINUTES.
she almost cried in the toilet.
she Prayed.
Thank God. not only did she finish her paper,
she still had time to check.
can you imagine how scary to face such an experience?

Jiamin was sharing that God prompted her to study
a certain chapter for her H2 mother tongue.
Thank God. that chapter came out.

I didnt study for chemical energetics for chem paper 3.
and it didnt come out for the paper.
Thank God. i was really panicking the night before
and asked God to help.

God is so real.(:

Psalm 55:22;
22 Cast your cares on the LORD
and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous fall.

Galatians 6:9;
9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

2 Samuel 22:7;
7 In my distress I called to the LORD;
I called out to my God.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came to his ears.

2 Cor 4:9;
9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

Matthew 11:28;
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

1 Chronicles 28:20;
20 David also said to Solomon his son, "Be strong and courageous, and do the work. Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD God, my God, is with you. He will not fail you or forsake you until all the work for the service of the temple of the LORD is finished.

Psalm 34:18;
18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

too many verses so ill share more the next time!
but i love this the most:

John 16:33;
33"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes
Like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal
To the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone will I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord

God, guide me through next week.(:

2008-10-27T21:46:00.002+08:00

This is my desire, to honor You
Lord with all my heart I worship You
all I have within me
I give You praise
all that I adore is in You

Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me

this weekend was a refreshing one!(:
despite crying consecutively for two days
through prayer meeting on friday and
service on saturday,
it was one of assurance.
thank you God.
you never fail to assure me your presence
even in times when i feel far from you,
even when things dont seem well.

i live for Him alone.
not through what people say about me,
not through what people think about me.
sometimes, people dont think before they speak,
sometimes, people may think that we are able
to accept their teasing when actually
deep inside it hurts.
and God reassured me this weekend that
yeah, i should be bothered by what they say about me,
and most importantly, not letting what they
say affect my life.

time and time again,
i fail You,
but God, thank You for not failing me.(:

2008-10-23T18:40:00.002+08:00

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring

And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives

And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

God, i need Your intervention in my life.
get rid of all these emotions.

and i really love reading winnie's and limin's blog.
haha random.
prolly cos these were the only two blogs that
i happen to read and they both contain
words of humility.(:

Less than a month till the big monster is gone.
honestly, i dont know whether i want it to end or not.
if you know what i mean..
in any case, no more travelling to and fro woodlands anymore in time to come!:D

thousand and one things to do after the big monster.(:

2008-10-19T12:06:00.013+08:00

INNOVA GRADUATION FAREWELL ASSEMBLY DAY, 101008.
The Theme: THE WORLD AWAITS YOU.

Mr Yip!HE ROCK!(:
proud to be his GP rep!haha.
Miss Yun! My 1st 3 months teacher.(:
Jill! Same Primary and Secondary School!

Wunyen!She rock too!(:
Thanks for everything.(:
JiaTian and WeiQi.(:
Hafiz! Funny guy.haha.
Si Li aka Joanne Peh!(:

Mr James Wong!
Tennis teacher cum 1st 3 months Chem Teacher!

The idiot who screwed up my JC life. haha! JUST KIDDING!
but she's really mean to me.):
Vishal the coolio!haha.
Marcus!(:
Marcus and Ada.(:
Emma and Vishal!
Sarah!(:
Brandon Afiq and Gerald!
Jemimah the Star!(:
Anthea!(:
Chai! The guy who never fail to imitate my actions when he sees me.
HANNAN!!! :D
Hannah!(:
Fadilah cum PW member!(:
Hannah Eeling Denise and April! (:
MunLing and WunYen!
KAMINEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D
CI'EN!(:
Javier and LiangJun!
Nicholas and JinWei!
WaiKit and HuiMin!
PCCK!(:
Mdm Lee! She's the Chem Encyclopedia!(:
JiaWei! The guy who never fail to quarrel with me EVERY DAY.lol.
Miss NG!PW!(:

the pictures are not in order! im too lazy to re-arrange it. haha!

RANDOM PHOTOS:

Your Personality Type: The Spontaneous Idealist

2008-10-03T16:37:00.001+08:00

Your Personality Type: The Spontaneous Idealist

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2008-10-02T01:13:00.003+08:00

i know i havent been blogging in ages!
but i just wanna post that I LOVE MY GOD!(:
was feeling really disturbed earlier this evening.
by night, i couldnt take those feelings anymore
and felt irritated about why i have to always
go through this "turmoil" in my life.
i was determined to make a change.
i took a paper out,
started writing everything that i was unhappy about,
settled things out with God, made sense to all the
"discrepancies" with God, and lift them all up to God.
Thank God.
i feel a hundred times better now!
and im really glad i chose to settle things out with God.
even though the issue isnt removed in my life completely,
i know i will grow so much more in this.
ALWAYS PUT GOD IN THE PICTURE!

no matter how much youre gonna criticize me,
it WONT stop me from loving my God.
GET THIS CLEAR.(:

Genesis 4:6.
I really learn a lot from my people.(:
Sandy, you must master it.
Jesus take the wheel.

2008-08-28T12:02:00.004+08:00

JUMP 2008 @ Fort Canning Green.
I got this from shirl's blog!
Magnificent!(:

JC NORTH(:

One thing I desire,
One thing I seek.
Is to gaze upon Your beauty, Your majesty.
God of my salvation,
Lifter of my hand.
Teach me how to live, Oh Lord, Your righteousness.

So I pray to You, so I pray to You.
Lord, Your name is higher than the heavens,
Lord, Your name is higher than all created things.
Higher than hope, higher than dreams,
the name of the Lord.

In the days of trouble, You cover me,
In the secret place of refufe,
Lord I will sing.
So I pray to You, so I pray to You.
I will seek Your face,
Call upon Your name Jesus.
All I want is You~

The manifestation of the Heart, Mind, and Soul.

-on Hiatus-

2008-08-18T14:02:00.004+08:00

when the oceans rise, and thunders roar,
I will soar with You, above the storms.
Father You are King over the floods,
I will be still, and know You are God.

my weekend was a blast!
it started off with friday after school
where a few of us went over to bukit batok
on our secret mission! it was good!
stayovered at mila's house, where i tried to
attempt to study but not for long.

saturday's meeting!
thank God for jontay!
i think what he said make sense.
if we cannot even accept our leaders,
there will come to a point where we
cannot fully accept God because our
leaders are all appointed and anointed by God.
service was great too!
congratulations to XIANGHUI for making the
BEST DECISION IN HIS LIFE! :D
met up with yongle and sherman after that.
the time spent with mila mervin waikit and pete
at dhoby ghaut mrt was the bomb!
we were all almost Roll On Floor Laughing!
"ahhhhhhhhhhhhh choooooooooooooooooo!" (:

while waiting for mervin's dad on sat midnight,
we were sitting down at ps's bus-stop stairs.
as we were talking, i was suddenly reminded of the past.
i remember there was a period when almost every day,
i would be at that bus-stop waiting for a particular
someone.
the times we had together was truly memorable.
then i questioned.
"have we ever loved a period of time in our lives
so much that we wish it could remain the same forever?
unfortunately, most of the time, it doesnt happen to
be the case? no matter how hard we wish and pray that
it could be turned back to the past, it will never
ever happen."
why?
certain experiences that happen in our lives,
its to help us to learn something out from it.
it may be also to help us to mould our character.
its sad, having to lose something you really treasure,
but at the end, we gain something even better.
(haha, i dont know if i will be able to tell myself this
if that day really happens. you know you know. okay you dont know.)
losing someone will help you to treasure another even more.
so, always treasure the people around you now,
because you wouldnt know what would happen in future.

I CANT WAIT FOR FRIDAYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEE~ :D
jogging/movie/shopping?
and then JUMPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

okay i just see a quote in front of me:
You dont Fail until you Quit! (:

I JUST READ A POST I REALLY REALLY LOVE
IN PASTOR SHIRLEY'S BLOG!!!(:
im so in for it after my Alevels!
and i totally agree to what pastor jeff said
in the video on the importance of hopekids ministry!:
1) kids represent the future leadership.
2) kids are moldable.
3) it reaches out to the other parts of the family.
watch href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzazRcGZD5E for more!

~~its just so fake~~~

2008-08-15T13:21:00.003+08:00

Nothing else can make me feel this way
Like Your presence in my life, every day
How can I explain the way You make me feel
Cos Jesus Your love for me is so unreal

I wanna be where You are
I wanna stand at Your feet
Jesus to be where You are
It makes me wanna sing

Ill praise You every single day
I can't stop loving You always
Jesus to be where You are,
it makes me wanna sing Your praise

I wanna be with You
I wanna be with You
I wanna be with You every single day

met up with raphael on wednesday night
and i learnt a lot from him from the session!
it was really a fruitful one that there was
a sense of unspeakable joy flowing from within me!(:
he said something that was really timely.
many a times when we do something wrong/terrbile,
we'll keep telling ourselves that we suck, we feel cui.
but we should never take things too seriously on ourselves.
never expect too much from ourselves.
learn from the mistake, and move on!
dont cause a wall to be built up between you and a person.
when things dont work out, be wise and look for other solutions.

its like a domino effect~
if you choose to keep thinking
that you are always right,
no matter how hard he tries to salvage
the friendship he has with you,
each time it will just get worse.
it will collapse one day.
give him a chance, because im sure
the both of you arent feeling good about this at all.

the second best day of my week is here!(:
cant wait for tmr!(:

i asked myself a hundred times,
and each time i ask myself,
i just cant find an answer.
why is it so complicating?..

2008-08-12T14:06:00.002+08:00

true acceptance..
comes from Him, and Him alone..

sorry for the lack of posts!
my lappy doesnt allow me
to go online ever again!

recently, ive come to discover
and observed many things that
once again caused me to take a
step back in the many
__________ that i have.
but anyhows,
im really thankful for the session
i had with mervin on saturday night
when we actually shared to each other
about the many life's difficulties
we are facing. im glad mila could identify too.
im just counting down till that very day!
i so totally cant wait to put this to an end.

SPAM GOD'S WORD INTO YOUR LIFE!!!
which reminds me,
our dearest wk won himself a bible on saturday
after courageously (together with his shpd's company,
or what pastor shirley said: man's servant, PETE!haha!)
going up on stage to answer a question on
why he wants a bible!
im sure he has had many memorable moments
after joining this family of God!(:

and im currently kinda affected by
someone who is really dear to me.
its really easy for someone to stray away from Him.
this simply shows one thing.
that we got to ALWAYS stick close by His side.
can you imagine, if an earthly friend is affected
by your spiritual life, how much more will He feel?
ahhhhhh God, pleaseeeeeeeeee protect her.
i really love her a lot and i cant bear to
see her in this state!):

I wanna be with You forever.

2008-07-31T00:18:00.003+08:00

JCNA3!(:
a bunch of really crazy people,
who love calling me names,
yet accepting everyone for who they are,
their strengths and weaknesses.
i loveee this family of God! :D

how much can one actually trust his/her friend 100%?
a) he/she believes that his/her friend is trustworthy and is thus able to trust 100%.
b) he/she does not believe that his/her friend is trustworthy and is thus unable to trust 100%.
c) he/she used to believe that his/her friend is trustworthy and chose to trust 100%, but through the experiences, he/she realise that he/she can never fully trust his/her friend 100%.
which do you belong? just a random thought.
i hate to admit, but i belong to _.(:

anyhows, i think innova is getting really motivating
because they recently put up many many many
inspiring quotes. lol.
and apparently one of them happened to catch my eye.
it goes,

"when Thomas Edison was asked how it felt to fail 2000 times in trying to invent the light bulb, he said: I never failed once. It was just a 2000 step process."

wahhhhh. to think such a thing can come out
from someone's mouth.
that is true perseverance man.
many a times when we fail in one thing or another,
we see it as a huge blow
that it requires so much of us
to stand up once again to move on.
to see yourself unable to achieve something
despite trying for at least 3 times.
i think some of us may not want to try again.
if you ever feel this way,
tell yourself that if thomas went through it 2000 times and eventually succeed,
you can do it too.(:

alrights. im super tired now!

2008-07-30T23:26:00.005+08:00

[EDITTED]:
am talking to my brother about my studies
and i really think he qualify to be a motivational speaker.lol.

PRINCEZ - Time to Work Smart!!!... says:
i was from a neighbourhood sec school that recently closed down... my pri school closed down too.... my past didnt shape my future... it was my present actions at that time.... forget bout your past.... focus on future by working smart and hard now... be desperate... to succeed!!!

i guess i really need to be desperate.
[EDITTED END].

10.5 more weeks.
in this 10.5 weeks,
its gonna determine what i will
be doing next year and the next and the next.
i need motivation that will last.
i want to do well,
i need to do well,
i must do well.
to be honest, up till today,
i ask myself if i really regret going to innova.
sometimes i cant deny that fact.
but i got to face the fact.
that "i hate school" cannot be an excuse
for me to not do well.
because whether i do well or not cannot
be dependent on the circumstances that i'm in.
it just shows how weak i am to not depend on Him totally.
a lesson / many lessons to learn from?
but i figure that NIE is all the way at boon lay!LOL.
okay. this is not an emo post.
but i really learn that i should not dwell on the fact that
"school is far thats why i hate school so much that
i am blaming the fact that school is far thats why
i cannot help my studies anymore."
NO! i mean, with God, all things are possible!
what kind of stupid excuse is that.
so, yes! i will go explore my new motivation soon and very soon!
and im gonna give my best shot!
to make Him proud, to make my mum proud!
God can turn the impossible to possible!
im not gonna let my family nor my friends to look down on me!

school's tmr!
and somehow im looking forward to it!(:

i made a huge mistake.
my friend, if you ever read this,
and if you know that im talking about you.
i am really very sorry.):
i shouldnt have told you about it.
ahhhhh. im sorry to make you feel hurt.
ohmy. i dont know what to do or say.
im sorry...):

and i totally love shirley's post on leadership!
irrevocable.wordpress.com
what’s the use of arriving safely at the wrong destination?
at times you have ruin what you have in order to create something better.

draw me close to You,
never let me go.
i lay it all down again..

2008-07-30T00:10:00.002+08:00

Like the sun that rises every day,
Oh You are so faithful,
Dear Lord You are faithful.

Like the rain that You bring,
And every breath that I breathe,
You are so faithful Oh Lord.

Like the rose that comes alive every spring,
Oh You are so faithful,
Dear Lord You are faithful.

Like the life that You give
To every beat of my heart,
You are so faithful Oh Lord.

I see a cross, and the price You had to pay
I see the blood, that washed my sins away
In the midst of the storms, through the wind and the waves
You'll still be faithful,
You'll still be faithful
And when the stars refuse to shine, and time is no more
You'll still be faithful,
You'll still be faithful my Lord.

sandy is still kicking and alive!(:
hahah okay, not exactly.
cos im down with throat inflammation
and flu and blocked nose concurrently!
(concurrent sounds physics.okay out of point.)
which explains why i have two days mc!
everyone, be jealous.(:

anyhows,
cg was a BLAST today!
we had two new people joining us
and we had LOADDDSSSSSSS of fun today!(:
i cant upload the photos and videos now
cos blogger always dont allow me to.
oh wellssssss.

okay bye!

2008-07-19T02:33:00.002+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates,
have been really busy and tired lately.):
but anyhows, i still thank God for bringing
me through this entire week
and i thank Him for the many
blessings and opportunities he has poured in this week too!(:

committment is the ability to follow through
on the right decisions that you made
even when the feelings have subsided.
im not giving up.

the basis of our relationship with God is -faith.
without faith, you can do nothing.
DONT BE DISILLUSIONED.

i was so discontented earlier i totally
didnt feel like going for ________ tmr.
how can this be?! ahhhhh.
God knows how many msges i sent to the team today.
then later, Mervin called to assure me that
we need to have the child-like faith
and not feel so defeated. Jeremiah 45.
i know we havent done our utmost best yet.
we havent work till the point that
we'll shake God's hand to cause Him to move.

1 Cor 3:6
"I planted the seed, Apollos watered it,
but God made it grow."
water = prayer! how much have you prayed, sandy?
how desperate are you? your desperation will
translate them into how big and wise your A C T I O N S are.

on a side note, im thankful
my mischievous cousin will be
coming for service next saturday!
hahaha okay she reads my blog.
oops! she's not mischievous la, haha.
she's just a normal human being,
who needs more attention,
and love, and the right way of
bringing brought up.
its okay! never too late(:
oooohhh, and i realise that
my auntie spies on my blog
and is a regular reader! HAHA.
yes, CL! mission on-the-go! :D

come live in me,
all my life, take over.

2008-07-13T00:58:00.002+08:00

my conversation with simon, the rocker!

sandy charis. says:
whats jeremy's email add?
*PTE simon ephraim company of heroes! says:
jemthejoker@hotmail.com
sandy charis. says:
okay!
*was about to add him into my contact list*...
*PTE simon ephraim company of heroes! says:
NOOO!!!
*PTE simon ephraim company of heroes! says:
it's not!!!
*PTE simon ephraim company of heroes! says:
HAHAHA
sandy charis. says:
OMG
*PTE simon ephraim company of heroes! says:
HAHAHA
sandy charis. says:
i ALMOST added the wrong person!
*PTE simon ephraim company of heroes! says:
u believed!
sandy charis. says:
hahaha!
sandy charis. says:
YA!
*PTE simon ephraim company of heroes! says:
gosh
sandy charis. says:
then i was like "HUH? SO NOT JEREMY AT ALL EH."

oh and he inspired me through his results!
he said he got SEEDS for his prelims last year!
God planted a seed,
and the seed grew into AAAAB in his Alevels!
WOWWWW!

2008-07-12T00:22:00.003+08:00

to mervin:
im really thankful for you.
thank you for initiating to
call me earlier to
share with me about how you
feel towards certain things,
as well as bringing encouragement into my life.
the 55minutes of talk time was worth it!
continue to live out that child-like faith in you,
because i sincerely believe that through your
child-like faith in God, He's gonna use you
BIG time! ways in which you cannot even think
that He can do in your life!
so let's continue to give our all,
and run till the end of the race.
thanks for being a great support to me!(:

to yongle:
i know that this period in your
life may not be a smooth one,
and you may even question about the
things that you are doing now,
whether is it worth it.
i still firmly believe in what i told
you over the phone earlier, that
dont let circumstances stop you from
how God can use you.
you may not see the results now.
but have the Faith, which can
do so much more than what you cannot see.
you got to stay strong so that you can help your friend.
and like what i said, youre never alone in this,
and you will NOT be alone in this.(:

God allows certain situations to happen in our lives,
not because He is sadistic, not because He enjoys
it when we suffer.
but it is because through these situations,
we grow in our character, and they help us to
understand things that we may not have known before.
think about it, without problems,
how can we then expect ourselves to become
a more mature person?
how can we have certain values in our lives?
it is through all the situations in our lives
that help us to learn something out from them.
and when our friends in future face the same
problems that we faced before, we can emphatise
with them and help them even more!

refreshed.
i will be still, and know You are God~

2008-07-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

i will not be shaken.

love is not a feeling.
its a committment.

oh my..
this is going way too fast
that i cant comprehend anymore!
i live by faith.
I WILL NOT BE SHAKEN.

God, protect all these people.

2008-07-07T03:16:00.002+08:00

no more excuses.
the very reason why im still awake at this hour:
i just spoke to a super close friend of mine,
and i really learnt a lot through the
whole conversation,
and also listening to a close friend's convictions.
I AM SO CONVICTED AND MOTIVATED IN TAKING
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD SERIOUSLY NOW.
no more slacking in my ministry and in my studies!
God will be impressed by you,
when you live out what you say.
i want i must and i will do it.
take my all, God.

2008-07-04T23:55:00.001+08:00

I'm young and do not know a lot,
come and be my all.
I want to love you more,
giving you my life and all.

many a times,
we feel that we went through a lot
in our walk with God.
but the truth is, sometimes,
what we are going through
cannot be compared to how
others may be going through.

some of us have the privilege
to serve God and to serve Him
without much persecution
but we dont give our all to Him.
few dont have as much the privilege
to serve God due to the
various persecutions they may face,
but yet they still give their all to Him.

as i reflect upon my life,
how the Lord has brought me through
the many circumstances i faced in the past,
i know that there were times i questioned Him
during the circumstance,
"why me?", "why do i have to go through all these?"
no doubt, He has brought me to where i am today,
and i'm glad i choose to hang on to Him,
because I know that He has the best plans for me.

back to what i typed earlier,
many a times we feel that
we go through a lot in our lives.
but we got to look at it
in a different perspective.
things do not happen by mistake.
in every situation,
we grow to become a stronger person,
a more mature person,
and there will always be a
blessing in disguise.
no matter how tough it is,
stand firm, keep persevering.
you'll never know what good
the Lord has in stored for you!(:

2008-06-30T00:50:00.002+08:00

Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways
I cannot understand
I’ll never walk away because my future’s
In Your hands

I don’t care what people will say
I’m running after You
I won’t turn back and go their way
Cause I’m running after You
No matter what may come my way
I’m running after you
It’s You I’m following today
I’m running after You

2008-06-25T00:17:00.002+08:00

an all-about-education post:

you pay to study,
you pay to take exams,
you pay to study for exams,
you pay for stationaries to take your exams,
you go through 2 years of pain in jc,
to take some papers at the end only in a span of two weeks
(compare the ratio!),
you go through more than ten years of pain of studying
to see you graduating with a piece of certificate (higher quality of paper)
at the end of university.
thats the wonder and simplicity of education.(:

my conversation with emma:
emma: do you say in the bus or on the bus?
me: on the bus la.
emma: then on the car or in the car?
me: on the car. eh wait, sounds weird.
emma: i told vishal that i was on the car and he told me not to let my notes to fly away.
me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

my conversation with david:
david: you got one wrong for your chem mcq.
me: *SHOCKED* ONLY ONE WRONG? you finish doing alr? the answers written there are my answers and most of them is tikam one eh.
david: i only did one question.
me: ......... THANKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

THREE MORE DAYS TO THE END OF FACING SHEETS OF WHITE PAPER AND BLACK-PRINTED WORDS
which tortures me mentally~
NO DISCUSSION OF PRELIMS IS ALLOWED. THANKS.(:

i had a fruitful time with wendy today!
and i cant upload photos i dont know why.

God does not lie.

2008-06-23T00:28:00.003+08:00

im so proud of innova.
i think they just did the
best thing ever!
PE PERIODS HAVE CHANGED FROM TWO TO ONE!!
OH YES OH YES OH YESSSSSSSSSS!
the day i have been awaiting!
but its only half of my wish!
it should be COMPLETELY removed!
but anyhows, im still thankful! :D

reply to tags:

emma:
hahah dont be sad!
you wont be seeing me tmr(:
all the best for your papers!

PHEBE:
leave your link please!(:

steph:
hahah i dont want to do the quiz!
waste time! ahhaah.

Peifen:
hahah yeah he's smart!
and you ah,
sick in the mind ah.lol.
school's starting!
you can see _______ soon! :D

mervin:
im glad you took the challenge(:
12 july and 9 aug, by FAITH, yeah?
dont look lowly of yourself!
cos He knows and i know that YOU CAN.(:

hannah:
hahaha we know peifen's
ulterior motive!lol.
anyway yes we're gonna do it!
im really excited!

xingyi:
eh eh eh,
the umbrella is not panda!
dont let matthias see this,
otherwise he'll go crazy. haha!
and you didnt leave your link.lol.

sathya:
sathyaaaaaaaa!
i found you a friend called satay!
arent you glad? haha!

joanne:
YES BOSS.

wendy:
okay soon soon! :D
and im really glad
youre committing once again.
His love never fails!

MILA:
thank you! :D

MELISSA:
hello melissa!
hows the sword coming along? haha!

bernard:
dont talk nonsense!
and quickly improve your blog,
whatever i told you yesterday!

Nicholas/ (From North) :
hahah God loves you too!(:

MATTHIAS:
YOU DONT HAVE TO ANNOUNCE
THAT NAME TO EVERYONE YOU KNOW.
ahhhhhh. lol.
i regret what i told you earlier.
when i say ill let you call me that
for all you want, it doesnt mean
you can announce to all for all you want!
and you pangseh. say want to meet me
in the end never turn up!
and tmr youll be gone.):

alrights!
maths and econs are excitedly running to me,
while im so not!

God says to run the race.
run. not walk, nor jog, not sprint.
get it?

i shared to most of them about my
conviction of being a finisher of cg08,
not only a participator.
most are on board and are ons about the challenge!
i received encouragement and positive responses
since saturday, and im really excited!
IJ MI JJ HERE WE GO! :D

Charis = Grace.
i really thank God for winnie
for choosing this name for me.(:
i need grace in my life
otherwise i would be living in
a life of condemnation instead.

God, whatever i responded in camp,
help me to live it out.

2008-06-21T01:08:00.004+08:00

just a quick post.
photos taken in CIP a few weeks back!

our group!

gareth! so cute please!

ermmm. i forgot his name.lol.

i forgot theirs too.lol.

and this thing which i forgot what is it
was given to me by MERVINTHELAME.
even though he discourages me 9/10 of the time
under the influence of matthias thaddeus chan WEN LONG,
i must still affirm him for his deed. hahaha. THANKS!

ahhhhh.
sch's starting!
im excited about
the REUNION WITH KCCP! :D
and EXAMS! yeah right.
if only they remove exams,
i wouldnt mind studying for another twenty years.
OKAY, i think im out of my mind. ignore that. ahaha!

after talking to joanne,
i feel really bad now.
sorry to make you guys feel that
this friendship is so one-sided.
omg. i really think i need to make
the effort to meet up and catch up with
a lot of people after my mid years! :X
- clique5.
- theNINE.
- PCCK!
- germaine camille phebe.
- jiemin lausanne.
- my extended family!
- i need to send hannah off on the 29th!
IM LIKE TOTALLY CANT WAIT FOR AS TO END NOW.

anyway i read jasmine loh's blog
and i think what she shared
is really true:
"how can we live like the same as we did before the camp if God had spoken to us big time in camp?
what makes this camp just like any other one if you live life the same after you break camp.

may blood be on my hands if i ever just live life the same after capturing the vision of God and understanding his heartbeat for the world."

i got this from nicholas' (from north) blog:
"God won’t ask you to do something that you can’t. He WILL provide a way, but it’s not an easy one.

If you choose not to, you’ll bear the consequences."

So True. Thank God for blogs
cos reading blogs allow me to learn too!(:

Lord I'm amazed by You~

2008-06-19T07:47:00.003+08:00

It's not about being the first,
but doing YOUR best for Christ.

everytime i see this statement
which stares straight at me
from my hp,
it never fails to motivate me
to keep going.

you know its like when youre
REALLLLL desperate over a situation,
you just wanna give up and hack it.
but NO! dont give up.
do your best, He will do the rest.(:
officially five more days
before i face the world
i dread the most once again.
how i just wish everyday was OASIS~

how desperate you are,
shows how desperate your actions will be.
you got to start taking ownership.
thereafter, you need to start working.
i sent a 3 pages long message
to them yesterday,
and im glad they are on board with me!(:
when there's a burden, it doesnt stop there.

met with theNINE yesterday.
only five came, but still,
it was an unforgettable night!
ate at this marche-like JAPANESE place,
wahhh, my brother will love that place too!
and i realised it was ages since i last saw them.
and they even complained that i was missing in action.
thus, i will make an effort to meet up with them
more often!(:
and after listening to the updates of the group,
i couldnt believe things like that
could have actually happened.
as what Si Lei put it,
"whatever is happening to this world?!"
YES, WHATEVER IS SO WRONG WITH THIS WORLD!
no matter how much we hate ourselves,
we must still protect our body!
dont give it away like as though
its a recycable item
and keep self-inflicting it
time and time again.
its so painful, isnt it?
then another said she is fine
with pre-marital sex.
call that FINE?!
OH PLEASEEEEEE..
this is irk-ing me so much
because you guys were once
so innocent and these are actually
happening. oh my..

stayover at xuan's house
on tuesday night together with winnie.
im really so thankful for them in my life
because even though we dont meet up very often
or talk like every day,
they are always still there for me
and accept me for who i am.
the late night talk that we had,
caused us to come to one conclusion:
GOD IS REALLY MOVING!
He has so much in stored for the whole church!(:
CG08 will definitely come to pass!

anyhows xuanting!
im so sorry for last night.LOL.
i did wake up at 12am, the very
first time you called me.
but after that, i didnt know what happened.
the next moment i came into the world,
it was already 730am.ahhhhh! kill me please.

OKAY!
overnight study tonight,
i MUST ensure that i study a lot!
i didnt touch econs the whole
of this holidays. i better start today!

revival.revival.revival.
actions.actions.actions.
courage.courage.courage.

2008-06-15T01:01:00.002+08:00

OASIS CAMP~
one that God spoke to me
the most that i needed to hear.
there are things that i gotta apply in my life,
and i learnt many things as well.
however, im not gonna list them all down here
UNTIL AND UNLESS, i:
1. fully apply them into my life,
2. fully overcome them.
talk is big, action is deep.
on hind sight,
i know that im on the right track for now,
or what my people confirm it to me, at least.(:
and i do share them to people whom im closer to.
i know its not gonna be easy,
but because You say so, I will.

yes, this guy really make me wanna
strangle him most of the time.
but he really helped in increasing the
atmosphere in my group today.
by calling pee-teh as SATAY, which amused everyone~
and also co-leading my short meeting for the whole
group after service.
he proclaimed that he is a SDL -> self-declared leader,
which once again, amused the whole group.
basically the whole meeting was just to affirm
at least one person for what he/she did in camp.
and this guy affirmed me twice,
the first one being:
"okay i wanna affirm sandy! that even though during games
she ran very very slow, but she still made the effort to run."
WOWWWWWWWW. thanks ah, bernard.
and i know you will be reading this. haha!
i wont mention the second one cos it was a sincere one,
and i was indeed touched by what he said that i almost cried!
if he heed to my people's advice to elaborate so as to make me cry,
i promise you i would have cried on the spot.
but thanks for the affirmation.(:
see, i told you. you dont have to be very zai,
but you can influence people's lives too! :D
and the meeting ended off by him praying for us!
even though it was a short prayer,
im sure it was a unique one.
after the prayer, he was like
"wah, i never even pray for my group before la."
hahahahaha.

when you see someone's life being changed,
thats the difference.

2008-06-06T22:59:00.003+08:00

wahhhh.
i was utterly impressed and amazed by this boy today.
was studying alone at cineleisure in the afternoon
when a mother with two of her sons
were sitting at a table beside mine.
a while later,
the younger boy (which is the one above),
started walking around.
he then stopped beside me,
and started looking at the maths questions
that i was attempting.
after a while, i decided not to pretend
to be oblivious to his curiosity,
and looked at him.
and this is the whole conversation
i had with him and his mum:

boy: can i ask you a question? how do you sketch all these graphs?
me: *SHOCKED* errrr.... *and i explained to him in a manner which i hope he understood* i use the calculator to draw it?
mum: im so sorry. he loves maths a lot.
me: ohhhh okay.(:
mum: he's primary four and he's doing sec1 maths now. he does the maths questions from his brother's assessment books.
me: woww.
me: hello. whats your name?(:
boy: ______ (i forgot his name alr.lol.) what about yours?
me: oh im sandy! do you love maths?
boy: yes i do. i love to do maths that is higher than psle standard.
me: WOW. *decided to pass my maths revision booklet to him*
boy: *took it and sat down and look at it earnestly*
me: is he in the gifted programme?
mum: he went for the test. but he didnt get selected cos he took his own time to do the last question so there wasnt enough time for him to complete it.
me: *was already impressed enough that he took the GIFTED programme test*
mum: but he could do this sec2 algebra maths question that no one else could do and he finished way earlier.
me: WOWWWW. *continuously nod my head*
after a while..
boy: can i ask you a question?
me: *STRESSED* sure(:
boy: how does the graph *points to my GC* relates to the equations?
me: *OH MY, stop stressing me!* *tries hard to explain*
boy: hmmmm, okay. can i ask you another question?
me: haha. yeah yeah.
boy: how do you know that ________ *i forgot what he asked alr but is that kind of questions that not any normal person will ask! like high level questions!*
me: *tries really hard to explain*
boy: okay, interesting. thank you.(:
mum: he told me once that doing maths is like relaxation to him.
me: 0.0!!!

a memorable encounter i had with this boy.
only PRIMARY 4 and he loves doing maths!
he does sec1 maths and loves maths till the point
that he can ask me about jc maths please..
i felt real dumb after talking to him! HAHA.
yeahh. so i couldnt help but to request
to take a picture with him. lol.

anyhows,
i went to watch kungfu panda
and i think its a really funny show!
i havent laugh this much in a while.
and i really thought what the
tortoise in the show said made sense.
its like as though God talking to me please.hahaha.
a reminder that i dont have to be zai then can be leader.
just got to trust and believe in Him and myself.(:

alrights. better go do some work!
TWO AND A HALF MORE DAYS TO CAMP!!!

2008-06-06T01:57:00.004+08:00

hahahah.
i was looking through my
past posts a few days back
and i came across this conversation
i had with mila that couldnt make
me stop laughing:

c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
tmr after service study kay.
MILA(: i am Jesus's and Hana Kimi's tou hao fan-si! HAHA! (: says:
yeah!
c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
i got himalayas of homework
c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
HAHAHAHAH
MILA(: i am Jesus's and Hana Kimi's tou hao fan-si! HAHA! (: says:
HAHAHAHA
MILA(: i am Jesus's and Hana Kimi's tou hao fan-si! HAHA! (: says:
I HAVE EVEREST
c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
i have the amount like how long the great wall of china is
c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
HAHAA!
MILA(: i am Jesus's and Hana Kimi's tou hao fan-si! HAHA! (: says:
HAHAHAHA, my is the nile river
c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
haha mine is as deep as hell
c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
lol
MILA(: i am Jesus's and Hana Kimi's tou hao fan-si! HAHA! (: says:
aiyah, okay lah!
c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
YAY i win!
c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
hahaha!
c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
i will blog about this
c h a r i s. i cant live without you in my life. says:
hahah i go do it now

HAHAHAHA.
so childish please!

anyway i really need to get
down to serious work man.
okay bye!

as she speaks about the things that she's facing,the stress from work,the ungratefulness of her sisters,the guy who regretted his actions seven years back,and the financial difficulties she's facing,i could see that she was controlling her tears. i didnt say a word.. because i was fighting back my tears too. "ill find a way to get the money as soon as possible so that you can return your friend the $70.." and i ask myself, why does he have to make me hate him so much for making her go through these much and i have to forgive him for what he has done.. she is a really strong person.

2008-06-05T02:00:00.003+08:00

would you take some time to watch the video, please?

WOWWW.
im so amazed by God's creation
of the media.
really am.
the videos ive watched today
has changed my life.
and i dont want it to just
remain in my mind today
and be gone tomorrow.
there's a reason why i
got the opportunity to watch
all the videos i watched today.
if its just to stir up some emotions,
that is SO WRONG. so so wrong.

God is moving. He really is!!

and im super convicted to go overseas
to reach out to kids!!

i was just blog hopping,
and it just sets me to think.
if people age 13 14 15 are so on fire for Him,
come on JC STUDENTS!
we're supposed to be a model for them!
are we being one?
i think we can do a much better job.
and this makes me realise
i have a more important role now
with a greater responsibility.

okay i need to go and sleep soon
so that i can have a fruitful day tmr.

im determined to live a disciplined life now.
God, help me.

heal my heart and make it clean,
open up my eyes to the things unseen,
show me how to love like You, have love me.
break my heart for what breaks Yours,
everything i am, for Your kingdom's cause,
as i walk from earth into, eternity.

2008-06-03T22:27:00.003+08:00

Revelation 3:15-16
15I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

PREPARE YOUR HEART.

I'm ready.
Are you?
Oh God, You got to make a way.
IM REALLY DESPERATE!!!
let it be a life transforming one
for ALL of them including myself!
i've done what i can.
its all up to You now.

softened and open heart
to receive and obey
whatever He is gonna speak
during camp~

It's all about You.

reply to tags:

passerby:
hello thanks!
who are you?(:
i suspect you are hannahkamsadi!
anyway HANNAH KAMSADI IF YOURE READING THIS,
PLEASE KNOW THAT YOURE GREATLY MISSED.(:
please tell me when youll be ____ okay?

sherms:
yes! LINKED!
shermsy wormsy~
HAHAHA.

pete:
is it ALL that you have to say to me!
hahahahaha.
anyway COME BACK SOON!
the whole cg misses you like MAD,
especially mervin the lame!(:

Peifen:
hahaha thanks!
and study hard!
come on come on!

emma:
hahaha SHUT UP.
whatever is so wrong with you.
anyway catch up soon!(:

tracee:
BEST FRIEND! :D
how have you been?!
missed your presence
in second service.
hope youre adapting well
in tertiary service!
keep jiayou-ing!(:

meL:
congrats!
youve just become a shpd!
you can do it mel!
and stop asking me to run will you?
jogging will be fine.(:

winnie:
WINNIEEEEEEEE~ :D

steph:
hhahah eh!
how have you been?
MEET UP AND STUDY!
youre J1 so you must study
and PROMOTE!(:

cien:
hahaha thanks friend.
and i want the photos!
and lets go night jogging again!
im quite excited about it.LOL.
and study soon!

andria:
haha i love you too!

Grace:
HAHA yeah yeah!(:

talia:
have a fruitful trip
and come back soon!
and stop calling me sandman!

sathya:
hahah THANKS!(:

CAMILLE:
hahahah SUREEE~
and you should stop
drinking so much. LOL.

MILA:
hhaha YEAHHH!
super cute!
and yeah cathay rocks!(:

2008-06-03T01:48:00.001+08:00

It is not a human right
to stare not fight
while broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
that we might find
the mercy for the need

It is not too far a cry
too much to try
to help the least of these
Politics will not decide
if we should rise
and be Your hands and feet

Fill our hearts with Your compassion
as we hold to our confession
God be the solution
we will be Your hands and be Your feet

Higher than a circumstance
Your promise stands
Your love for all to see
Higher than the protest line and dollar signs
Your love is all we need

Only You can mend the broken heart
and cause the blind to see
Erase complete the sinners past
and set the captives free
Only You can take the widow's cry
and cause her heart to sing
Be a father to the fatherless
our Saviour and our King
We will be Your hands, we will be Your feet
we will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place, we will be Your light
We will be light

after eons,
i finally got to talk to
jiemin and lausanne through conference last night.
and they kept complaining to me about something
i felt so helpless.LOL.
and WOW.they told me things that i dont know
that had happen five years ago!
wahh they kept from me for so long!
and they said the five years ago seemed so recent.
HAHA ohwells.
the lovely memories that were brought back so clearly.
if only...

and OHMY.
im way behind my study plan!LOL.
HELPPPPP!

6more days to camp! im really excited!
Dear God,
i pray that in this forthcoming camp,
NO one will sprain their ankle or hurt their leg
cos it is really very very painful
and its super restricting.
please especially help me to not be so clumsy
like the previous camp to sprain both my ankles!
if need be, then let my ankle be sprained on the last
night just before the cg wants to go for a run.
(okay actually i dont know if this is a wise prayer.)
God YOU decide!(:
AMEN!

You are my world
You are my God
and I lay down my life for You
You are my Lord
the one I love
No one could ever take Your place~

2008-05-31T22:53:00.002+08:00

my phone shows that i walked
a total of "20864" steps today!!
which includes the heritage tour
and the WALK HOME from CENTREPOINT!
the capitalised words means
im identifying the KEY WORDS! hahaha.

anyway,
the heritage tour today was a memorable one.
the kids were super cuteeeee!
and the kids are really smart too.

we were on the bus
i saw this super cute 5 year old boy,
(the whole conver was in chinese)
me: hello!
boy: HELLO!
me: whats your name?
boy: gareth! (actually i didnt know until the later part cos he pronounced it as caleb/carrot. im not kidding.)
me: how old are you? (and mind you he was super cheerful when he spoke to me! I AM NOT EXAGGERATING!)
boy: FIVE! same as you! *points to the sticker i was wearing which says 'charis 5'*
SO SMART RIGHT?!?!?!

then when we were in marina square,
he held my hand and kept forcing me to
bring him to go and see toy cars.
gareth: i want to buy the toy car.
me: but you have the money to buy?
gareth: *sad face* dont have. *thought for a while then smiled widely* you have?
me: i dont have eh.
gareth: *point to my mouth* you cannot tell lies.
me: i really dont have! the toy car cost $10 but i only have $6.
gareth: *thought for a while* but got toy car below $6.
me: cannot la. miss chen (the teacher-in-charge) say cannot buy.
gareth: *points to my mouth* you bluff me. i never even see you talking to her.
me: REALLY! she told us the other day. we cannot buy toys for anyone.
gareth: *whispers to my ear* then we secretly go and buy la.
MIND YOU HE IS ONLY FIVE YEARS OLD!!!

and then there was another boy
which the conversation goes like this
(also in chinese):
boy: *singing*
me: *tells cien* i think he sings not bad.
*pause for a while*
boy: ma, did you hear what she said?
mum: *pretend* no ah i never hear. what she say?
boy: *instead of telling her mum what i said* tell my mum again what you just said.
HAHAHAHAH.

and my group and i went to
explore at fullerton hotel!
and one of the mums were super funny la.
i really learn something so important
from all these people today.
that they really treasure things
that are given to them.
fullerton hotel to them is like
as though you can only enter it
once in a lifetime and
there are many things in singapore
that they never see until today.
the indescribable joy inside them
when they explore around,
and even things that we dont appreciate,
they appreciate them A LOT.
really simple things that make them happy eh.
some of us dont even like our phones
while many of them dont even own a handphone.
ahhhhhh.

okay.
i really hope i can post the photos up soon!
must wait for cien to send to me!(:

alrights.
i shall go and bath now.LOL.
and im thankful for my people
for wanting to be an
armour bearer to me.(:
and you know what?
im seeing my people's lives improving
a little day by day.(:
when you see lives changed,
thats joy man.(:

I am a Child of God
and I WONT deny it. :D

2008-05-31T00:41:00.002+08:00

why is it that
many people know that
certain things are not good
for them but they still
choose to do it/them?

for example,
we know that smoking
is bad for health
and will shorten one's life.
but still, why are many still smoking?

we know that we should not
self-inflict and hurt ourselves,
but still, why are many hurting themselves,
using their own body to inflict hurt
by slitting their wrists, etc?

we know that we should fear God,
but still, why are many still
taking advantage of Him?

we know that we must
always ensure that we are
growing spiritually,
but still, why do many choose
not to bother about this?

just a few random thoughts
that went through my mind today.

anyhows.
im quite excited for cip tmr
apart from the fact that ill be missing service!):
reason being it will be the first time
we'll be reaching out to children.
and the children that we'll be
handling are those who dont come
from a good family background, lack social skills,
behavourial issues, learning disability or even autism.
it can equip me for future purposes!(:
i hope i wont get bullied by them though, haha.

and i walked home from cathay today again! :D

okay tmr is gonna be a long long day.
i better go catch some sleep now.(:
and we've got a JJ visitor tmr!

second chance.
salvation comes from grace through faith,
not through works.
i am proud to be a member
of the hope movement! :D

2008-05-30T00:13:00.002+08:00

yay!
mel mel and mer mer are back!
while pee-teh and nah nah are gone.):
but anyhows, after listening to
mel's experience in camp,
im thankful that mine wasnt that bad.
i mean, everyone got diarrhoea on the first
day of camp for them cos the egg wasnt fresh?!
thats super sad. haha but ohwells.
at least they are back in a piece.
and mel just told me something funny!

sandy charis. says:
then hows merv?
proven faithful. once again. says:
the first thing he told me today when i saw him was that "I got 2 pimples!! i'm going home to put pimple cream"
proven faithful. once again. says:
i was like.... okay...
proven faithful. once again. says:
so girly la
sandy charis. says:
OMG so gay! hahah!

proven faithful. once again. says:
but the thing that gave me the biggest sense of satisfaction was the climb Gunung Panti
proven faithful. once again. says:
which is the name of the mountain
なんとかなるさ ~ エへ ♥ says:
oo !
proven faithful. once again. says:
towards the end is really like walking in the jungle at night
proven faithful. once again. says:
i think if sandy and u were there u all will cry
proven faithful. once again. says:
cause i almost did
proven faithful. once again. says:
it was rather scary
proven faithful. once again. says:
thinking that u cannnot make it to the foot of the mountain and u will have to stay halfway there
proven faithful. once again. says:
that thought was really scary
proven faithful. once again. says:
then somemore u know jungle got those wierd sounds from the animals at night
proven faithful. once again. says:
made it worse...
なんとかなるさ ~ エへ ♥ says:
O MAN

wahhh. really OH MAN eh!
JUNGLE eh! so dark please.
mas selamat may just be behind them,
they also dont know ah.

okay anyway
i just walked home from cathay
once again! so its an achievement.
hahaha.
and im super thankful cos i managed to
finish what im suppose to finish today!
three chapters of maths! wheee!

stats test was bad. i only got 15/46.):

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL TMR!
no need to go back to sch
for a good period of time.yay!

do you know that YOU matter to God?

this simple life,
nothing special, not much talents, capabilities.
but, use this simple life
to make a difference.
use me Lord.
i want to serve You with my all.

2008-05-27T00:04:00.003+08:00

oh myyyyyyyyyyy.
i need God to come back now, seriously.
i just planned my june study plan.
and i finally realised how little time i have!
omgosh. if you think the one month holiday
is so long. please think twice or thrice
or every minute man!
after calculating all the days
left to study (excluding camp, saturdays etc),
im only left with less than fifteen days to study eh!
and in my june study plan,
its SO PACKED already even without including econs!!!
my oh my, its a beautiful day~ HAHAH okay oops. random.
wahhh. thats one reason why i fear planning,
esp study plans!

while setting out camp objectives
and preparing for camp challenge,
I REALLY THINK JCNA3 CAN GROW SO MUCH MORE EH!
COME ON, GROWTH GROWTH GROWTH!!!
BRING IT ON!

wahhh i feel so loved by my friends eh.
thank you ci'en and mila.(:
for understanding me
and wanting to help me as much as you all can.(:

2008-05-26T18:27:00.003+08:00

i think cathay is my favourite hangout now
cos ive been here for consecutively dont know how many days!
and im here once again!lol.
anyway i feel very out of place
that mellissa and mervin are away for the J1 camp.
okay that was random.hahaha.

GP PAPER TODAY!
okay i shall blog about it another time.

went to meet grace for lunch at cityhall earlier.
and it was quality time spent, i must say.
getting to know her better and all.(:
met winnie after that at ps!
and im thankful for her in my life
because i never fail to learn so much from her.
thank you for openly sharing with me winnie!
we shall have a breakthrough together
and be very very very very firm! hahaha.

alrights.
shall go and do some planning now.
byebye!

14 more days to camp! :D

2008-05-25T23:15:00.004+08:00

today ended with a high note!(:
i just went for a run with ci'en!
and she say i ran much faster
than when i ran on the track.
see, i alr told y'all that running is
fine with me as long as
im not being pressured to run
or if theres the timing thing.
so yay! its a great accomplishment! :D

today's seed meet run was a complete flop!
mel reached ps first, about 5minutes before me.
pete reached like 1.5hours later!
so, i kinda psychoed (oops) him to not run
and i was a little shocked that
he agreed not to run! hahaha.
and minghui was the BEST.
woke up only at 10am.
when we were supposed to meet at 8am!
so the running was cancelled.
we ate at MACS (so much for wanting to go for a run.lol.)
and stayed there till MATTHIAS came!(:

matthias shared quite a bit about his army life,
and i kinda pity him a little.):
OKAY NO I PITY HIM A LOTTTTTT!
and omgosh i really really really really really
really really really really really really really
THANK GOD that i dont need to go to the army eh!
there was once he had to walk for TWELVE KILOMETRES
with TWENTY TWO KILOGRAMS WORTH OF THINGS ON HIM!
and dont forget how the current weather is!
the scorching immense heat from the sun!
and his army life really very sad and tough eh, SERIOUS.
but thank God YONGSHENG is his same bunkmate!
thats so cool la!
and he shared that many people suffer
from heatstroke and there was one whose finger was AMPUTATED!
oh myyyyyyyyyyyyy.

so anyhows,
we went walking around ps, meridien
for like 2 hours?!
(oh my, i feel as though ive
disappointed mr yip): )
so meeting officially started at 3pm~
but still thank God for the session!(:

wow it seems like everyone
is so proud of me that i
just went for a run! hahahah.
of course la, great accomplishment to me eh!LOL.
matthias was indeed being super encouraging
when i told him that i went for a run!
he said this,
"Lol breakthrough! Let me tell you something! I run everyday!"
HAHAHAHA. and he's crazy!
despite running like EVERY DAY,
he still ask me to tell him if i run again
cos he wanna exercise too!
CRAZYYYYYY~

OKAY. GP PAPER TMR.
GOD BLESS MY SOUL.(:

anyway.
i kept thinking about last night's clm
and though it hit me quite a bit,
i felt that my calling was still for hopekids.
nevertheless, i still asked God to expand my vision.
never did i expect that while going to
potong pasir's macs toilet earlier,
a question just suddenly smacked to my head.
"how about missions for kids?"
and i was like
"oh ya! how come i didnt think about it!" :D

okay gtg now!
and yay!
im happy that i didnt lose a friend! :D

2008-05-25T06:59:00.002+08:00

its 659am right now
and you must be wondering
whatever is so wrong with me
that im waking up at this hour
especially when its a SUNDAY!
to be exact, i woke up at 620am!lol.
i think im gonna have the
greatest achievement in my life in
a moment time.
sandy is going for a jog!
hahah this is crazy.
but its alright,
for my crazy people
who are so crazy about running,
i shall sacrifice a little.
(actually its more than a little!): LOL.)

when i called mellissa yesterday,
the words that came out from her mouth
couldnt help but made me jump for joy during
service yesterday!
"we are still at europe room. new believer's briefing."
perhaps to many, this is nothing.
but its totally different
when your group after eons
experience a breakthrough once again!
God is indeed moving! :D

if you have 40-50 more years to live,
what does it mean for you?
its really time to get down to
SERIOUS BUSINESS.
otherwise you can just
jump down and die.(:
-as quoted by winnie.haha.
and winnie i really miss you a lot!
thanks for always being there for me.
and thanks for keeping watch over my life
even though you dont tell me directly.
i definitely miss those times
where all of us served together in the past,
but im still thankful
that we are serving together in this church.(:

xuanting will be gone for
missions trip for a week!):
just when i needed her the most.lol.

alrights.
GP PRELIM1 PAPER TOMORROW.
i need wisdom and confidence!

ohmy.
i still cant believe im going
for a jog later.
is this a dream? LOL.

okay, better get going!(:

though my world may fall
ill never let You go..

why is it over?

2008-05-23T23:35:00.002+08:00

woots!
i just had a GREAT achivement!
i walked home from cathay!haha.
reason simply being
today is an
unhealthy-meals-day.): ):
but anyhows,
i think im improving!
if its one year ago,
i dont even think i will
walk home no matter how much i eat.lol.

the past few days have been rather, overwhelming.
but i think ive learnt a fair bit too.(:

i had my 2.4 on thursday, again.
and again, i failed.):
improved by 17 secs but failed by 15 secs.
i promise i hate this i tell you!rarrrh.
ohwells. i must say THANKS to jemimah for
running the entire thing with me
and continually encouraging me throughout.
i must say it was funny when she asked
if i wanted to do two rounds for warm-up first.
if you know me well, one round can already kill me!
lol, let alone WARMING UP FOR TWO ROUNDS!
after the run, i was indeed discouraged.
but jemimah shared something to me
which i really thought it made sense.
"its like history. it has already been done
and its over. dont think about what you should have
and what you should not have done. take it as a
learning experience, and do what you can, for now."
my oh my, do i really have to run during the hols?):
if only i was born later!
then i may have passed!

i went to consult mr yip for GP today,
and what he said finally dawned upon me
that Alevels is really not gonna be easy.
i got to start working hard!

anyways,
im really excited
because JCNA3 finally break 12 for service tmr! :D
and i really think God wants me to love running you know.):
out of my 4 people in seed,
three of them are ALWAYS so exicted to run
and they KEEP FORCING me to run!!!
so im gonna fulfill their
wish and desire by
making our first seed meeting on sunday a memorable one.
im gonna bring them for a run
early in the morning!(:
okay, more like they bring me for a run.
okay no, jog.(:
but obviously im not gonna let the run be one without purpose.
got learning point one.(:
alrights. im so sure they are gonna get a SHOCKED
when i tell them we're gonna go for a jog on sunday.haha!
they want to run on the last night of camp, mind you.
crazy people! i need MILA to join me! hahahaha.

no eye has seen
no ear has heard
what good that the Lord has in stored
for those who wait on Him
to hear His voice..
i was just thinking about this statement
while on my way to school this morning
and my ipod was playing it when i
was on my way back home.
so divine(:

2008-05-22T04:46:00.003+08:00

every decision you make,
there will be an opportunity cost evolved.
you either do the right thing,
or make a mistake.
and im not gonna make it look
like as though i made a mistake.
because it wasnt entirely a mistake.
it was just wanting to do the
right thing but it turned out,
different. from how i thought it would be.

its 453am now and im WIDE AWAKE!lol.
and no, im not waiting for the sun to rise luh.
its just that upon reaching home yest,
i decided to lie on my bed for a while.
and the next moment i came to my senses,
it was alr 415! gasp!
which means i still have:
- 1 econs essay
- 1 econs case study
- GP revision
- prepare for mr yip's consultation
- maths Alevel 2007 paper 2
- chem organic worksheets
- i forgot if there's geog tutorial. haha!

3more days to study for GP
before the big day arrives.
and i have yet any decent knowledge
of content!lol.

alrights. its 500am now.
i shall attempt to do my work
after doing quiet time!(:
AND GUESS WHAT?
3 hours more till
2.4 arrives. ahhhhhh.

misunderstanding and unintentional..

2008-05-19T23:42:00.003+08:00

Luke 5:5-6
5Simon answered, "Master, we've worked hard all night and haven't caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets."

6When they had done so, they caught such a large number of fish that their nets began to break. 7So they signaled their partners in the other boat to come and help them, and they came and filled both boats so full that they began to sink.

sometimes working hard, or even very hard
may not produce results.
the question is,
have you depended on God enough?
have you been praying hard enough;
for your new believer that
she'll commit her life to God?
for your exams?
for your family?
for anything and everything?
after you pray, do you trust
that He'll make it come to pass?
thank You for the reminder.(:

2008-05-18T21:01:00.004+08:00

Lord i lift Your name up higher
higher than the mountains and the vallies
Lord i lift Your name up higher
higher than any other name

and Lord i lift Your name up high higher
higher than all things upon the earth
and Lord i lift Your name up high higher
higher than all else

if there is one thing i took away
from CLM today, it would be this:
if youre a christian, live like a christian.
if youre a hope of God member, live like
how a hope of God member should be.
dont live such sub-standard lives.
im so convicted by this!

i see a revival entering our midst!
its time to stop allowing people
who do not want to serve to hinder
us from doing so much more.
come on! if you want to serve, SERVE.
if you dont want, dont be so selfish
and hinder the group from doing so much
more for God!
JCNA3 HAS THE POTENTIAL TO DO SO MUCH MORE!holy discontentment! ahh!

2008-05-16T00:07:00.003+08:00

Just let me say how much I love You

Let me speak of Your mercy and grace

Just let me live in a shadow of Your beauty

Let me see You face to face

And the earth will shake as Your Word goes forth

And the heavens will tremble and fall

But let me say how much I love You

Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend

Just let me hear Your finest whispers

As You gently call my name

And let me see Your power and Your glory

Let me feel Your spirit's flame

Let me find You in the desert

Till this sand is holy ground

And I am found completely surrendered

To You my Lord and Friend

So let me say how much I love You

With all my heart I long for You

For I am caught in this passion of knowing

This endless love I've found in You

And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found

To be called a child of God

Just makes me say how much I love You

Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend..

im beginning to love
walking to school in the mornings
cos its just so nice to start
the day right with God,
having a short conversation with Him
and just entrusting my entire day to Him.

and im glad i choose to
work hand in hand with God
because it is not affecting me
as much as how it would be.
or at least,
how i thought it would be.

anyway!
I PASS MY FIVE STATIONS LIKE FINALLYY! :D
five down and one more to go!
the one is gonna be a BIGG CHALLENGE.
but ill try my best.
i MUST pass!(:

2008-05-15T00:05:00.002+08:00

ive finally
got the answer to
my question already.

wow.
its so hard for me
to move on man.
why did i even involve
myself in this shit.
im so weak i find it
so hard to let go.
God, please come in
and intervene and take control.
only You truly know how i feel
and identify with me.

whats next?

i trusted so much just to find out that
i have denied myself all these while.

2008-05-13T23:46:00.006+08:00

one i hear from a friend
who was involved in a relationship
of friends with benefit.
and just today,
i found out that one of my friends
whom i regard as a good friend
had no choice but to
break-up with her bf cos
her bf was having a friends with benefit
relationship with someone else
even while they are together.
what is so wrong with the guys out there.
and then again,
i regretted not trying hard enough
then to stop you from leaving church,
otherwise perhaps you wouldnt be going
through such a situation in your life
right now.
if only, the mighty four and you are
all still here..
i still have the four stickynotes
at the back of my bible,
which i will many a times when i happen
to turn to that page,
think about the days when we all
served God TOGETHER.
times have changed, indeed.

ohwells.
anyway!
under forced circumstance,
i had no choice but to run for my 2.4 today.
i saw the HOD of PE, and started a conversation with
him which in the end, turned out to be real lame.
me: Mr Wong, the way the napfa system works is a little wrong. (actually i was thinking in my mind that it is not just little. but VERY WRONG. haha.)
mrwong: okay la. then next time you go and be the director, then you can change the way the napfa system works for all you want.
me: SURE. lol.

i suggested to the class today that
we should all pon pe,
and surprisingly.....
me: WHY NOT LETS ALL PON PE TOGETHER TODAY? :D
peifen: YOU KAKI AH. (direct translation of you ownself la.hahah.)
wahhhh peifen so enthu for pe for the first time! ahahah.

i wanted to prove to myself and people
that i can do it.
i ran to my best.
but... ):
do i really have to go through
this all over again?
i cant believed i actually c _ _ _ _
just cos i failed my 2.4km.
but it was more than that.
but still, thanks CI'EN! FOR RUNNING WITH ME
THE ENTIRE SIX ROUNDS!
AND EMMA FOR LENDING ME YOUR SHOULDER TO
vibrate on. HAHA.
and treating me to the H2O drink.(:
and perhaps i should thank vishal for
the toilet paper instead of
tissue paper he got for me.LOL.
and obviously mervin wasnt being
encouraging when he announced
that his 2.4 was 9minutes and 17 seconds (?!?!).

if i could, i would...
i may seem to be indifferent
on the outside,
but im not, in the inside.
if only you knew..

2008-05-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

is this called living in denial, or being full of hope?
or perhaps, its in between.
maybe, a mistake right in the beginning,
for 5 years?
perhaps its not a mistake, but an experience.
i think i shall go visit my personal blog
since ive not done so in quite a while.
oh why why why.
okay, i am melancholic. HAHA!

thank you (you-know-who) for being there for me.
it has been quite a while since
we last talked this way yeah?HAHA.
the good ol' days and the not so good
esp the one at vivo the other time.HAHAHA.
okay you should know that im referring to you now!
thank you friend! :D

Jesus take me in Your hands,
and make me all that You want me to be.
Jesus help me understand,
my purpose and what You can do through me,
fulfilling my des-ti-ny.(:

2008-05-12T18:42:00.003+08:00

even though mother's day
has been over,
i would still like to thank my mum
for everything that she has done in my life.
without the things that happened in my family
a few years back,
i would not have realised
how much determination and perseverance
as well as love she has poured
to ensure the well-being of my brother and me.(:
alrights, enough about the sentimental part.lol.

one very significant area that i really want
to thank my mother from the bottom of my heart
is helping me to kill cockroaches when
one visits our house every now and then!
i seriously think it takes a lot of courage
to handle a disgusting insect which is SO BIG!
and i realise everytime i spot a cockroach,
(okay i sound as though cockroaches visit my house
like every day. okay no, its not. it happens
every now and then. lol. but its still bad okay!)
she would be sleeping.
and i have to wake her up from her deep sleep,
just to KILL COCKROACH.):

i told her this last night while we were
on a search party of a cockroach (in my room!):
me: wah, next time if i have children i sure die one la. how ah?
mum: ....... (okay i forgot what she said.lol.)

and i started to imagine if next time i
have a child and my child start screaming to me....
child: MUMMY MUMMY THERE IS A COCKROACH!
and if i respond this way:
me: AHHHHH! WHERE?! OH NO OH NO! HELPPPPPP! GET IT AWAY RIGHT NOW!
im not gonna help my child a lot yeah? LOL.
i can only identify with her. thats all. lol.
so conclusion: DONT HAVE CHILDREN LA. haha. yes im convicted now! HAHA.

okay. enough of all these nonsense.
anyway the cockroach that visited my house yest
seem to be a newly hybridized one!
the butt has some different shape unlike the usual one!
okay i think i can specialize in cockroaches in future
if i cant find any job. LOL.
okay thats nonsense. whats with me.

okay i got to go!

FOCUS ON GIANTS, YOU STUMBLE.
FOCUS ON GOD, YOUR GIANTS TUMBLE. :D

2008-05-11T13:33:00.008+08:00

PRESENTING......
MY BELOVED CAREGROUP WHO LOVES ME A LOT TOO! :D

the a bit earlier days.lol.

steamboat earlier this year
during the march holidays!
when the new people just came in.(:

the WHITE VS the BLACK. i cant see pete!(:

whose the odd one out?lol.

this was taken when pete havent join us, duh. haha.
wheeeee!(:

lovely.(:

one to ten to many many more!

wendy and me!

pete tong CAICHENG'S birthday! :D

and yes!
this is their coolest leader on earth!
despite being cool, she still suffers.
from the many insults her people bring to her
like calling her sandman, irritating her
and trying to send her to her grave any time earlier.
its okay! since she's the man, SHE WILL P-E-R-S-E-V-E-R-E! :D

we are all one body, but many parts.(:

together, we'll grow, love, and make an impact in people's lives.
let's do it!(:

2008-05-04T01:53:00.002+08:00

a period of molding.
when everything in this world
is making me confuse,
im gonna trust in You alone.

because of You in my life,
that makes a difference.
when i cant go on anymore,
it is You who will carry me through.
it is You, Lord.
help me to understand certain things
through Your perspective.

it is the calling.
not whether i feel if
im capable or not.

2008-05-01T00:08:00.003+08:00

today is indeed an eventful day!
celebrated kamini's birthday during lunch,
had tennis competition,
and sports evening.
and we got conned that rasalas won!lol.
grrrr. we must win taurus!
birthday dinner for fadilah after that
was super funny!
pamela pronounced lasagne as LAKSA-NA,
peifen for her past 17+ years in her life
has pronounced mimosa as NEMOSA!
she think she finding nemo ah.HAHA. okay not funny.
we were on the topic of sesame street's big bird,
and there was a big commotion that
BIG BIRD ACTUALLY HAD A NEST TO SIT ON?!
big bird is so big! how to have nest?!
sutha was saying she may even have chicks!

me: CHICKS? what is the young of birds anyway? is it BIRDLINGS?
sutha: that is ducklings la. where got BIRDLINGS one.
oooppppsssss... lol.
i laughed so badly throughout the entire dinner
i'm having a sore throat now.):

today also marks the end of
tennis A'divs.
the schools we played with were
AC, NJ, YJ and TJ.
it is a very memorable experience for me!(:
although we just started playing,
mr wong commented that
we played better than expected!
3 cheers for the tennis team! :D

alrights, i've got LOTS of work to do!!
bye! :D

2008-04-26T23:50:00.002+08:00

i have finally decided to reply to taggs!(:

CAMILLE:
what short fringe buddy?
my fringe how long now please.
haha! anyway how has your
matches been?! mine was s-u-c-k-y.
haha. ohwells talk and meet up soon!

michelle:
hahahah HELLOOOO! :D

cale:
HAHA YESSSS I DID!
okay youre talking to me online now.
i shall go reply you there. bye! lol.

puiiwah:
that came out too randomly!lol.

SUPERTALIA:
HELLLOOOO!
thanks for being a great
support and friend to me!(:
continue to walk in His ways
and be the best that you can! :D

sathya:
hahahahah SURE!
okay im talking to you online
now so talk to you there instead.
bye!

tracy:
best friendddd!(:
good to hear that youre doing
fine in your new group.
keep shining for Him yeah! :D

okay i got to go sleep now.

2008-04-20T13:07:00.001+08:00

i read this from an email
and i think its awesome!
please take some time to read this:

The DIFFERENCE
--------------------------

Science and God

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist
professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his
new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a
moment.

'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you
can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good...!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if
you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He
doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even
though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can
you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of
water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student : 'From...God...'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there
evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything,
correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created
everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to
the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:
'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible
things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his
question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the
lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is
mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in
Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you
use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen
Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or
smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus
Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable
protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that,
son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem
science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a
question of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.
The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat,
mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we
don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below
zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is
no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the
lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when
it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have
or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.
You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of
heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units
because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the
absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom,
sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as
darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night
if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the
absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright
light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have
Nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to
define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able
to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.
This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is
flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.
'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student
explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good
God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something
finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a
thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much
less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life
is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive
thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they
evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young
man, yes, of course I do'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he
realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work
and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you
not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a
preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the
Commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other
student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class
who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into
laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain,
felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No
one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of
empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no
brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain,
how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the
student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I
guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists
with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as
evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We
see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man.
It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world.
These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at
least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.
It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe
the absence of God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when
man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold
that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there
is no light.'

The professor sat down.

Pass this on if you have faith in God.
If not, still pass it on for it's a good story!

2008-04-11T00:53:00.002+08:00

was ranting to my brother about
my studies and all,
and im glad i ranted to him.(:

PRINCEZ - My loves: Jamming, Singing, Teaching, Upgrading Myself, The Accountancy and Business Academy... says:
i think innova's standard is quite high
PRINCEZ - My loves: Jamming, Singing, Teaching, Upgrading Myself, The Accountancy and Business Academy... says:
so dun give up

PRINCEZ - My loves: Jamming, Singing, Teaching, Upgrading Myself, The Accountancy and Business Academy... says:
thtz life
PRINCEZ - My loves: Jamming, Singing, Teaching, Upgrading Myself, The Accountancy and Business Academy... says:
lucky u dun have to go Army
(haha im not going to army!thank God! :D)

sandy charis. says:
i hate it when you ask teachers question and they will be like "why you dont know how to do?"
sandy charis. says:
thats precisely the reason why you ask teachers questions right!
PRINCEZ - My loves: Jamming, Singing, Teaching, Upgrading Myself, The Accountancy and Business Academy... says:
yah
PRINCEZ - My loves: Jamming, Singing, Teaching, Upgrading Myself, The Accountancy and Business Academy... says:
just remember tht next time when u teach
(yeahhh. i will never ever say that to my students!)

PRINCEZ - My loves: Jamming, Singing, Teaching, Upgrading Myself, The Accountancy and Business Academy... says:
u need any tuition
PRINCEZ - My loves: Jamming, Singing, Teaching, Upgrading Myself, The Accountancy and Business Academy... says:
go find a teacher
PRINCEZ - My loves: Jamming, Singing, Teaching, Upgrading Myself, The Accountancy and Business Academy... says:
ask the price and sms
PRINCEZ - My loves: Jamming, Singing, Teaching, Upgrading Myself, The Accountancy and Business Academy... says:
me
(i feel more hopeful now! yayyyy! gonna find find find!whee!)

2008-04-08T22:45:00.002+08:00

i just had a
sumptuous yet very unhealthy
dinner/supper! :/

due to the heavy rain earlier,
i got totally drenched when
i was under the shelter!
what a paradox! haha.
okay is it even a paradox.
but it was rather funny.
kamini cien peifen and me had
to run or should i say SPRINT
across a stretch of pathway
cos the rain was far too heavy.
peifen even took out her unmbrella!
but they were too motivated to
run across the pathway that i was
two steps behind them!
which means no umbrella for me!
the rain couldnt stop chasing after me
and i couldnt stop laughing and screaming
while sprinting!
what a memorable day. hahaha!
i really question innova's shelter system.

2.4 postpone to next week! yayness.(:
and thank God chem test is postponed to friday!

i enjoyed caregroup today!
esp during discussion.
today's caregroup made me realise
and understand something.
that i should really not
let my mood be determined
by circumstances.
reason being, certain issues in my life
and people are really
testing me a lot and many a times,
i feel super sian.
but this shouldnt be right?
cos with Christ in the vessel
i can smile at the storm!(:

"life is not measured by the number of
breaths we take,
but the moments that take our breath away."

and i long to be like before.
God, help me to be as jovial
and joyful as how i used to be in the past.
amen!

alrights.
i will reply to tags soon!(:

2008-04-06T00:33:00.001+08:00

the greatest thing in all my life
is knowing you
the greatest thing in all my life
is knowing you
i want to know you more
i want to know you more
the greatest thing in all my life
is knowing you

come live in me
all my life,
take over.(:

2008-04-05T01:21:00.002+08:00

okay,sorry if this came
a little late but
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND AND JUNE! :D

and best friend,
i am not ignorant to the fact
that you'll no longer be in the same service
as me from now on,
which means,
the number of times when we see each other
and acknowledge each other with a "bestfriend!"
is gonna decrease tremendously.):
ill miss you badly bestfriend!
and to all the others who will
be moving on to the third service too!
you guys are gonna continue to make an impact
to wherever you will be!(:
thanks for all the happy memories!

anyhows.
ci'en kamini and i decided
to stay in school earlier to
watch the bball friendly match
against cj.
and INNOVA WONNNNNN! :D
yahoooooo!
and i must say that
we didnt waste our time
watching the match because
we had a great laugh
at this particular cj player!
he fell down 5 times (?!)
including once which was almost a split!
but innova's coach is really fierce la.
and cj's jersey is so big for the players
that i think a bird can fly through la!
and there was this guy, whose body
looked as though he is being abused
cos we counted FIVE blueblacks
just at the side of his body!crazyy.

anyhows,
some people in tennis
is really making me feel
super irritated.
they think they are super great
that they actually commented that
the coach is lousy.
and when the coach corrected his serving,
he got the cheek to talk back
and say that he has his own way of serving.
wah his attitude just make me want to
pray for 1000 flying cockroaches to attack him.
if he think he's that great, then prove it la.
attitude fail doesnt show anything alr huh.haha.
and when mr wong scolded them,
he could still give the
why-on-earth-are-you-scolding-me face.
ONE team or ZERO team!i agreeeeee!
rarrrrhhhh i really foresee that
if this problem is not solve asap,
the unity of the guy's team
is just gonna crash sooon.ohwells.

i officially lost
my precious mechanical pencil
which has went through with me
for 3 whole years.):

AND ITS FINALLY SATURDAYYYY!
I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY SINCE SUNDAY!!!!!!!

alrights.
better get going now.
and can anyone tell me
how i can download the game "diner dash 2"
on my phone for FREE? thanks! hahaha.

2008-04-03T00:19:00.004+08:00

it was a sign
for me to not go to school
today when i overslept.
and so i didnt.
i had to go check about
my headache anyway.
so i woke up at 10am,
went to sengkang at around 11+am.
had breakfast, went to the polyclinic,
then walked around for a while at compass point.
though it was just for an hour,
i totally love the time man.
how i wish it could be like this
my whole life.
no stress, no worries, etc.
alrights, sandy, stop dreaming.
FACE THE REALITY.haha.

and so, it isnt migraine.
its just that i lack of sleep
and i need to drink more water.
the doc say i have to sleep
an average of 6-7 hours.
she must be joking man. hahaha.

went to school for tennis after that.
and it RAINEDDDDDDDDDDDD.hahaha.

okay i kinda forgot what
i want to blog alr.haha.

always treasure the things/people
around you because you wouldnt know
how incomplete your life
would be without them.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY LUO JIE MIN! :D

i shall go face my
international trade tutorials now.lol.

2008-04-01T23:05:00.003+08:00

happy april fools!
i got fooled twice!):
one was i believed that
my friend scalded her hand
and the other was
mas selamat was found. -.-

during gp lecture today,
huihui told me that
there's no mcq for chem re-test.
and i didnt know till then.
and mdm lee said that
the questions wont be exactly the same
for the chem re-test.
but thank God it turn out 99% the same!

in the midst of being sian
this morning, i was thinking
what word i can form out with
the word S. I. A. N.
(yes that shows how sianed i was.haha!)
and i actually formed out a word!
S. I. A. N. = Sandy Is A Nerd! HAHAHA!
but actually it should be
Sandy Is Will Be A Nerd. hahah.

alrights.
block test results are all out.
nothing much to talk about.
4Us and 1S.
ill be in for star program
which means no cca but study.
and ill end school like
super late every day la.
ohwells. do i have a choice?lol.

~~i hate school even more today.~~
its so sucky
i told myself "why do i even bother
study when i cant even do it?its just
so painful and tiring."
then vivien said "sigh. i just feel
like giving up studying."
i could totally identify with her.
but then again, i thought about it.
why am i letting such negative thoughts
running through my mind?
DOOOOONNNNNTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!
-phil4:13. claim this promise!(:

i miss my secondary school days.
where you dont have to really regret
that you slack so much or whatsoever.
and there are super fun and caring teachers
like mrs low mrs khor miss ho and mr low!

okay. its 11.26pm now.
and i havent started doing any school work
for today. bleahh.
shall go do it now.

the silence.

2008-03-31T23:33:00.005+08:00

during chem lecture today..
teacher: all MY As and Bs students, report to LT4 tmr. all THE S and U students, report to LT3.
me: *telling kamini* wah, she's super bias.): HAHA.
anyhows, chem lecture was super boring today.
electrochemistry. and i didnt even take
pure science in secondary school which means
i have no electrolysis knowledge!

seems like most of 0723D
were anticipating for our new
classmate's arrival today
but he didnt turn up for school in the end.HAHA.

alrights.
its april fools tmr and
i do hope that
i wont fall for any trick.
Dear God, let whoever who intends
to play a trick on me tmr
be attacked by 10 flying cockroaches.
okay nvm, not so mean, 2 cockroaches will do.
AMEN!(:

chem re-test tmr
and hahaha. ohwells.
i started studying at 7+pm today
together with mellissa and puiwah.
and i could totally identify
with them when they were
complaining to me about pw.
i reminded them that
its only PI now. HAHA!

alrights. shall try to memorise somemore chem............

8 times in 3 days. dont let the number increase..

2008-03-30T20:18:00.002+08:00

hahahaha.
my very funny conver with jonathan:

sandy says:
eh i ask you a riddle
sandy says:
why is mas selamat 2/3 woman?
* cale [ HCCG <3][ 06A13 | E1Ad0 ] Hosanna says:
Huh
* cale [ HCCG <3][ 06A13 | E1Ad0 ] Hosanna says:
he is arh!
sandy says:
HAHAH OBVIOUSLY NOT!
sandy says:
OMG IM SO GONNA BLOG THIS
sandy says:
HAHA!

okay i gtg. shall blog again soon.

2008-03-30T01:32:00.005+08:00

i think im having migraine.
this indescribable pain
has been going on for close to one week.
my mum didnt help when she
say i may get a STROKE. -.-

alrights i better get going.
i have to complete an econs essay
by 12pm later which i havent even started!
and theres geog assignment, maths tutorial, chem worksheets, econs case study to be done by monday. which i havent started on them yet too.lol.
and there's a chem re-block test on tues
which i havent started memorising yet too!

The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems
Forgiven I'm alive restored set free
Your majesty resides inside of me
Forever I believe
Forever I believe
Arrested by Your truth and righteousness
Your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness
Convicted by Your spirit led by Your word
Your love will never fail
Your love will never fail

I know You gave
The world Your only Son for us
To know Your name
To live within the Saviour's love
He took my place
Knowing He'd be crucified
And You loved
You loved a people undeserving

2008-03-28T23:36:00.002+08:00

there are certain things
in life that you have to let go
when you may question,
"but why? why does it have to happen to me?"
it goes to show that the thing
do have some sense of significance to you
that would resulted in you feeling this way.
however, as surface as you may feel it is,
if you take some time to probe into
it further, you may realise
that it do make some sense.
obeying without full understanding.
its always the first step
that is difficult but
dont give up.

there is a reason for everything.

"You'll be forever Lord, the love of my life."
and because of this statement,
i will obey even if
i may not understand fully,
or even when its not easy to make a change.

one thing i trust,
is that the friendship will
not stop here.(:
thank you, my friend.

2008-03-27T00:04:00.002+08:00

God will make a way
when there seems to be no way.
dont give up! (:

2008-03-24T00:52:00.002+08:00

school's starting like in
a few hours time.
the thought of it just irks me.
and when sarah smsed the pw leaders
regarding pw earlier, i quivered.
"i thought my pw days were long gone?
why do i have to submit the group
working file and what on earth is that?!"
so i found out that it has got to do with
all the notes and drafts where you put into
that file.
and my next response was
"why would i even keep my pw notes and drafts
till today?! the day pw vanished from my life,
was the day when i dont mind seeing
10 cockroaches in my house.
HAHAHAHA NO NO JUST KIDDING.
no cockroaches. i still hate them like MADD.

and ive not forgotten
my promise i made to Him
regarding school.
and i do hope that ill
not let my emotions to tear me down
time and time again.
with christ in the vessel
we can smile at the storm!
haha okay i just suddenly
thought of that song.lol.

thank God
for a convert in MI! :D
can you hear the sound of revival?(:

it sets me to think.. youre contradicting..
sometimes the world is just making me
feel so confuse.
perhaps ive been too naive to
easily believe whatever people say.
come on sandy, its a different world
we are living now. i need more wisdom!(:
perhaps the earth has been spinning
faster than it should in recent years.HAHA.

2008-03-23T02:21:00.007+08:00

this post is dedicated to YOU(:

I HATE GOODBYES~ ):

it has been nearly one year since i met you.
the very first time i met you was at
east coast park when there was some event.
(there was when i met hazel too!haha.)
and i remembered you as the one who
loves to sing and is crazily in love
with this vietnamese singer.
oh ya. you are narcissistic too! LOL.

as time went by,
we got to know each other better.
serve together in the same unit and
same dmm.
and i want to say that i lovee
your presence all these while.
you have brought much joy into
my life as you have portrayed
in your baptism name.(:

will never forget the happy times
where we spent together.
studying together
at dhoby exchange,
overnight study session at
toapayoh macdonalds,
and the overnight stay we had
at zixin's house to study last year.
and the funny thing was that both you
and zixin fell asleep and i was
the last woman standing!
eh no not standing. studying! HAHA.
and the most memorable day i had with you
was the night before X29 camp
at zixin's house
where we laughed for God knows how long
at certain stuffs. we better repent.lol.

i still remember when you came back
a few weeks ago.
when i saw you,
you totally made my day.
im so sure God sent you
because i was feeling very down
before you came.
and now, youre going off once again,
this time for an even longer period of time.
i dont even know when ill be seeing you again.):

thanks for being a great friend,
a great sister,
for being you.(:

your lameness,

your retardedness.

ALL THE BEST in your next phase in life yeah?
I LOVE YOU, because God loves you.(:

and know that the group will always
be here supporting you! :D

i really hate goodbyes.):
but i have to let you go anyhow.

take care, my friend.
and,

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for.

2008-03-21T07:41:00.000+08:00

Block test is FINALLY OVERRRR!(:
and in case youre wondering why
im blogging at such an
ah-pek-will-only-be-awake-at-this-time hour,
yes, im blogging at 7am right now!(:
not cos im im training to becoming an auntie,
but just that i spent my entire night out
and i've just reached home!

Before my journey back home,
i happen to have my breakfast at
boon keng hawker centre.
Gosh. Throughout my entire time there,
memories of the past kept coming through my mind!
How when i was younger,
i would always go to my grandfather's fruit stall,
and he will never fail to buy things for me.
And when i grew a little bit older but not so old yet (haha!),
i helped out at my grandfather's fruit stall during my school holidays.
I kind of miss the stall now.): but the stall no longer exists
soon after my grandfather left this world.
My grandfather was so faithful in tending the stall.
Whether rain or shine, he would leave the house at 4+am,
ride his bicycle to the market to open the stall.
He was indeed very committed.
But after his lung cancer got worse, it was a total different thing.
He passed on the fruit stall to my uncle,
and yeah, my uncle was not as committed and faithful,
so when the market went through a 2 years renovation,
he decided not to have the stall anymore.
Okay sorry for this random post. Haha!
I was just musing over the past. (:

so the other memory that i thought of
was when i helped out at chorkwan's parents food stall
many years back.
Hong kong tim sum if im not wrong. Haha.

I think its so cool to be able to share
one of the rare experiences that occurred in my life
cos come to think of it,
im sure not many would have worked/helped out
at a hawker centre before! And i worked twice
at two different hawker centres!lol.
Oh actually there's a third one but it was only once
so doesnt matter la.lol
So im cool! HAHA. Okay that was totally off tangent.
I need to integrate it!

Which come to my next part of my post.
MY BLOCK TEST.
GP: i left 4 marks blank and i only started on my intro for AQ!!!
maths: it was a total disaster. Maximum marks that i can get is 17-20/85. i was unsure if the paper was difficult. Just that after doing the second question, the hall was being far too warm, and i felt sticky, i was having a headache, and i totally felt like sleeping. So i couldnt do the rest of my paper anymore.lol.
Econs: essay was not as bad as i expected. Case study was bad.
Chem: bad. I only got 11/20 for mcq. And needless to say, paper 2 was a disaster.
Geog: this wasnt as bad as chem. And the fact that i only studied geog 30 minutes before the paper, all that i studied came out! Thank God! (:
so yeah, block test was a bad experience.
But one very good thing that i wanna give thanks for
is that my prayer life increased during this entire period!
Like i felt that i was talking to God every single minute!(:
this must continue in my every day life.(:

alrights.
I better go prepare for sentosa unit mcg now.
Bye! :D

2008-03-16T01:00:00.002+08:00

I wont be afraid anymore
of the terrors by night
of the arrows that flies by day
And though a thousand may fall at my side
And though ten thousand may fall
In Him I put ALL my trust

He who dwells in the secret place of the most High
shall abide in the shadow
I will hide in Your wings always
Your angels stand by to keep me in all my ways
And though a thousand may fall at my side
I will say in Him I trust

And though a thousand may fall at my side
And though ten thousand may fall
I will say of the Lord
that in Him I put ALL my trust

I will give thanks to God
IN all my circumstances
and not for all my circumstances.
He is the source of my joy
so i shall not be an emo kid anymore!(:

2008-03-14T23:09:00.006+08:00

pictures from my birthday!

winnie the pooh!(: duhh.

PCCK!!! :D

and again!

me and magdalene!

vishal marcus me emma gerald ada!

me and the LOUDHAILER.(:

denise eeling me hannah!

with vivien!

waikit(the GAY) me and huimin!(:

with ada!

with ci'en!

with peifen!

2008-03-14T23:07:00.001+08:00

EMMA THE COOL IS HERE !!! :D

2008-03-13T01:07:00.003+08:00

yahoo!
my mum just bought me
a new laptop today!
unfortunately there wasnt
red colour so i had to get
the white one.
but the white one is fine too.lol.

anyway.
if anyone know how to solve
the following problems
please tag me.
1: i have a modem at home but i just cant connect it to the internet.
so im like using free wireless @ sg now.
2. i cant download avg.
3. i cant download msn.
and i doubt i can download any other programs.lol.
so yeah thats the current problems.
and the setting up of my laptop
has generated an opportunity cost to me!
i didnt study at all today!! AHHH.

anyway.
9 out of 10 people were shocked
when they saw me today.
is my hair really that bad?!lol.

2008-03-09T16:56:00.002+08:00

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power
is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast
all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that
Christ's power may rest on me.
-2 Cor 12:9.

back for a short post!
i got a D for my chinese.yup.
indeed it was unexpected to me,
but i've learnt to accept it alr.
just wanna thank these people
for being there for me and
encouraging me just within that
two hours:
peifen, cien, kamini, fadilah,
hannah, huimin, waikit and david.
huimin made me laugh when she
asked me to join her class for lunch.
its like SO WEIRD la!
esp when i dont know their class people
and my face was super red.
and waikit couldnt stop making me laugh
at his gayism.

i really need to be determined
to study this entire week!!

let go and let God..

2008-03-03T12:32:00.002+08:00

you can talk to many people
about it and asking them
about what you should do.
but ultimately, the decision lies
within yourself and you
have to be determined about it.
i think i lack that.haha.

anyway.
i slept at like 2am yest
and im so tired today!
kept dozing off during chem lecture.
and i couldnt concentrate during maths lecture
after a BIG BUG came to visit me.
it was GOLD, and disgusting, and gross,
and it was on my jacket!):
thankfully kamini isnt afraid of bugs
otherwise i will just scream my head off.

yay! im still on for the one-day challenge! (:

and congratulations TALIA and RACHEL
for your baptism day! :D

okay i gtg.
im still tired.lol.

2008-02-29T22:57:00.002+08:00

i've got 4/28 for my maths test!
this calls for a celebration!lol.

what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger..

im in the process of becoming
a stronger person.

why do i keep having thoughts
that everyone is selfish?
even i think that i am selfish.
thats so uncalled for.

anyway. i always forget what i want to blog.haha.

oh i had my econs test today.
i studied hard for it
but i didnt even complete half
of the essay!
no time. and when i wrote fast,
i couldnt think properly.so sian.haha.

okay bye!

i may go bonkers any time soon.(:

2008-02-28T11:59:00.002+08:00

you dont have to know everything
before you step out in faith..

i just had my maths test
and i shall not comment on it.
SUCKS. hahaha.

anyway im so glad geog test tmr
is postponed to next week.
which means i have time to study
for tmr's econs test.(:

was studying at kap yest
and calvin, alvern (sp?),
xinyi and jiehui were there too.
xinyi and jiehui were talking
about uni stuffs and i felt
so lost listening to their conversation.HAHA.
jiehui was telling xinyi that
he will be learning some
larplus (sp?) formula
which allows you to skip
integration steps.
and apparently i was studying for integration yest. -_-
and i said "SO WHY ON EARTH ARE WE LEARNING INTEGRATION FOR?!"
bleahhhhhhhhh.
its like you have to walk the tough way
before you can know the easy way out.

oh i love the teaching
that matthias gave
during cg on tuesday.
substitutionary atonement.(:

was walking to causeway
after cca fair yest
and i happen to overhear
a group of J1s conversation.
i didnt mean to hear it
but apparently they were
talking rather loudly so
i couldnt help but to
be inquisitive.haha.
so, they were talking about
innova jc..

girl 1: i was telling my friend i got into IJ and my friend asked me what IJ is. i said innova and my friend was like INNOVA?! why go there?!
*laughters from the group of girls*
girl 2: i was talking to my friend online. he asked me which school i got into. i said innova. and he said "WHY ON EARTH DID YOU GO TO INNOVA?! THE PROBABILITY OF YOU FAILING YOUR ALEVELS IS VERY VERY HIGH!"
*laughters from the group of girls*

firstly i must say that the girl2's friend
must be a prophet or something that he can
predict such a thing
or rather he has been living in a state of denial,
or his sense of sarcasm is real high.
if he dont already realise which i think he's pure dumb,
there's only the first batch of results
and which part of "innova-junior-college-has-done-well"
said by the media does he not understand.
i think the reason why innova's points are so high
is to allow people like him to come in.
and i personally feel that whether you do well or not
at the end of the day is not which school you are in.
ultimately is WITHIN YOURSELF.
and if they think they are that great,
why in the first place come to innova?
go to schools that they want to go la.
okay im sorry for saying such stuffs
but seriously, they say till like as though
they dont fit to be in innova
and im wondering why in the first place
they want to come here.
its either they didnt do well, or didnt do well enough.
even then, which also means they cant
qualify to a better school, right?

okay.
im currently reading a book
which is totally distracting me!
the book is so addictive!hahaha.
where rainbow ends..

okay i kind of forgotten
what i want to type again.
HAHAHAHAHA.
byeeee!

2008-02-25T12:18:00.004+08:00

im currently in the library
and there's this guy beside me
who looks like my primary school
favourite teacher, mrs ong,
and i cant stop looking at him!
and no, im not interested in him at all.
hahahaha.

anyway, i realised that i have
yet to upload loads of photos
but here are a few:
friday night with friends:
great world city's food junction.
their food junction is super high class la.lol.

asylum bar at clarke quay!
me ALBERT! jiemin! hahaha.
weird combination but yeahh.
there were two other random guys
who were with us too.

me and the easily-tickled girl.
she TOTALLY gave me a SHOCK
when she screamed when we were
about to cross the road.
she saw a CAT. HAHAHA.

both of us drank lychee martini
and i didnt like it.lol.
i prefer the drink that jies drank.

i really hate taking photos with her la.
she'll ALWAYS make sure her head is behind mine!):

flag day on saturday!:
jinwei and me.

the milo dinosaur we had
for breakfast at casuarina curry
at upper thomson!

okay im going off to watch some video now.
bye!

2008-02-21T12:06:00.002+08:00

OMG.
before i settled down to study
at united square's starbucks at 1030pm yest,
i needed the toilet badly due to the
sudden calling of nature.
i entered united square,
hurriedly went to the toilet
and was determined to get out of there
as soon as possible because all the shops
were already closed and it was kinda DARK.
as i was on my way out of united square,
the largely bolded words printed on the sign
which was hung on the door stated, "CLOSED".
i turn to the other door, and again, "CLOSED".
G G! i hurriedly walked to the taxi stand exit
and once again, the door states "CLOSED".
thankfully i didnt panick otherwise
i wouldnt be here typing all these now.lol.
and thankfully, God sent 4 angels so i wasnt alone! :D
after 10-15minutes we eventually find a way out.
PHEWWWWW... (:

the daunting pe lessons are back once again.
have to run 6 and 7 rounds on both pe days,
and the following week- EIGHT ROUNDS.
omgosh kill me now please.lol.
and i hate them for placing the
2.4 results outside the pe room
to let everyone look at it.
i shall not comment.haha.

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there’s nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take you down,
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with you by your side,

And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there.

All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like there's no use going on
You can't give it up
I'll help you work it out and carry on

Side by side, With you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on

when youre so busy and stress
that you dont even know where to start
sorting things/thoughts out.
i must say it wasnt an overnight thing.
you said that you destructed my life.
i dont blame you because i dont think its your fault.
and my life isnt destructed yet.(:
dont worry, i will stand firm and strong.
i just need more time.

alrights.
theres maths tutorial later on
and i didnt do my tutorial at all.
and theres like chem Alevel spa, geog mock test, maths test and econs essay test next week.lol.sian.ohwells. thats JC2 for you.HAHA.

2008-02-18T12:13:00.002+08:00

Your faithfulness endures always
Where mountains fall and reason fails
And You calm the raging seas
And You calm the storms in me, again

All I know is I find rest in You
All I know is I find rest in You

My heart will praise throughout the night
Where singing seems a sacrifice
Your grace is all I need
Your grace is all I need

new challenges, new testings..
mostly due regards to people.
but something i learnt:
never let your emotions
affect your communication with
your friends.
cos your friends will end up thinking,
"why on earth are you putting on an attitude?
what on earth did i do man?"
but then again, perhaps the person has her
reasons for letting her emotions take
control over her.hmmm..
ohwells. ignore that. only xuans will understand
since i only shared to her about it.
when there is a need for an explanation, ill wait for it.

when there's always room for improvement, there can never be good enough..
it can mean in a good or bad way depending on your liking.(:

i happen to read a letter yesterday
and the letter kind of explained
what PASSION really is.
i was overwhelmed man.
my passion to teach has not reached that level yet.haha.

lots of things to blog about,
but due to time constraints.
i shall stop hereeeee.

i'm fine, i hope.(: NO EMO-ING la.

2008-02-13T12:40:00.002+08:00

my very first visit to the polyclinic:

to begin with,
I WAITED FOR LIKE 3 HOURS
BEFORE EVERYTHING WAS DONE!

i had to wait to get the PRE-registration number,
i had to wait for more than one hour to get registered.
i had to wait for at least half an hour to receive consultation,
i had to wait for more than 15 minutes to collect my medicine,
and i had to wait to pay for the medicine.
now i totally understand how it feels like
for the provision of healthcare in the welfare state of Britain.
lol okay not that exaggerating but..
i almost died waiting.):

the good thing was that there were a couple of super cute kids! :D

and wow~ im having some eye infection.
my mum asked why i didnt get two days MC.
its the first time im hearing such a thing from her.HAHA!
but then again, she has an ulterior motive.
if i get two days mc, then she would be able to get one day leave!LOL.

ohya. i didnt know the polyclinic
was so hospital-like.lol.

and i bought some cheapo yet BEAUTIFUL items at amk central!
i bought a deck of winnie the pooh uno cards for only $2
and 6 stacks of sticker booklets for $4!
i was so proud of my purchase
that i felt so aunty about it.lol.

alrights.
i just had an econs case study test
and i left a 8 marks question completely blank
because i didnt have time to attempt it.AHHHH~

i've come to the realisation that the words
"THANK YOU"
make a whole great deal of difference.(:

okay got to go!

2008-02-11T12:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINAA-ESE NEW YEAR!
-as quoted by mr james wong.HAHA.

anyways.
im super duper duper tired.
tired.
really tired.
really very tired.
really very very tired.
and so, i decided to not
come to school tmr.
because im simply very tired.lol.

i slept at 430am on chinese new year eve.
430am on the first day of chinese new year.
545am on the second day of chinese new year
and i woke up at 7am!
my left eye was red and now my right eye is red.haha.

chinese new year eve:
school was totally boring.
i fell asleep.haha.
and there was pathetically only one performance.
went to peifen's house after that.
then meet joanne at bugis.
rushed through chinese new year shopping.
went to my neighbour's house thereafter
for reunion dinner. but my mum didnt wait for me!
so it wasnt entirely a reunion dinner huh.
then went to meet zixin and david to countdown(?haha!)
at river hongbao. we went to clarke quay's fashion bar
and we met this ang moh guy who to me, was kinda scary.
before heading home we went to the parliament's house... entrance.HAHA.
chinese new year:
grandmother's house the entire day.
went to joanne's house at night.
ate like super late!):
we were looking at people's friendster
and laughing about stupid things.
2nd day of cny:
STUDIED.i actually studied.
more like chiong homework la.lol.
went to my aunty's house after that.
then xiaoyan's house
and they totally attempted to kill me.
i wanted to go home and sleep so badly
but they refused to let me!):
3rd day of cny:
clm in the morning @ 830am!lol.
service from 11am-1pm!
im so glad that mila mellissa
and jinger transferred and joined us!
and we'll be meeting for dinner tmr!(:
slack for a while with a few of the unit people.
went to yishun to visit.
4th day of cny:
study.what else.lol.

anyway waikit asked me to watch
movie on friday but i rejected
cos i needed to study.
but in the end i only studied in the afternoon
so i should have went!!
sorry waikit and wunyen!lol.

speaking of which,
i remember the other time
when waikit asked me to watch ratatouille,
I ASKED HIM THE DUMBEST QUESTION ON EARTH.
i asked him if ratatouille WAS A GHOST SHOW.hahaha!
okay whatever...............
and when it was chem lecture,
the teacher showed some ratatouille video clip!lol.

okay econs lecture gonna start!
but i still have lots to blog about!
ahhhhh..........

2008-02-05T13:11:00.000+08:00

back! but not for long. heh.
just a few random stuffs.

chinese new year is coming! :D
there's gonna be a drastic difference
in this chinese new year.
reason being, i guess half of the time
i need to be a hard core mugger
and finish the heapload of homework
i have accumulated over the past two to three weeks.
jc2 life sucks big time.
i better complain no more
otherwise when it comes to september or october
i think my blog can win the most-complaining-blog award. :D

i must say that JAVIER CHUA WEI SHENG has
FINALLY became a MAN.
for the first time in my entire life,
(not that i know him for that long.only 1 year.ha!)
i see him being WILLING to help our classmates
get food from the canteen! usually he would reject immediately.
MCP what. tell you a secret. everytime after his meals in the canteen,
he wont have the basic courtesy to clear the plates.
he say thats the job of the cleaners. (?!?!)
atrocious (acs barker boy what.haha.) but yeah he's finally
willing to help us do things.
lol. his next step is to volunteer and initiate to buy things for us!hehe.

oh i got back my chem test. got a big fat U.
9.5/30. bleah. whatever..... hahaha.
but still thank God for the A i got for maths test!(:
and mr wong said i improve a lot in tennis!
hopefully i can get back into the team once again.
but i wont be playing for one week,
so i lack practice!

speaking of which,
i remember on the night before chem test,
i was talking to peifen over the phone..
me: what are you doing now?
peifen: doing pie chart for organic chem.
me: pie chart?
peifen: ya pie chart.
me: PIE CHART?
peifen: ya ah pie chart. why eh?
me: WHY ARE YOU DOING A PIE CHART? do you know what is a pie chart? is the percentage thing eh..
peifen: ya.. (pause for a while.) OH OH MIND MAP MIND MAP!! NOT PIE CHART!
hahahahah hilarious la peifen!

okay i better get going.
school ends at 645pm for me.
life's so tough.haha!

i had reunion dinner on sunday night.
most of the time, my brother was talking about my future.
i want to be a teacher. but im not sure if im prepared.
he said the worst thing a student can do to you
is to come up to you and want to pick a fight with you.
how will you react to him/her?
i couldnt answer him cos
WHY DOES HE/SHE WANT TO PICK UP A FIGHT
IN THE FIRST PLACE!lol.im like harmless la.
but anyway i have a new conviction.
i personally didnt come from a good family background.
and as the many experiences/lessons i learnt of
children who dont come from a good family background,
i want them to come and know the love of christ.
to experience so much more that they can have.
but the part that i may struggle is to first win their hearts.
still quite scared to approach these kind of people
cos usually they tend to have violent tendencies or a super scary face.
but i have to do it and i want to do it!
so anyways, i think i will be going
straight to NIE after Alevels.
work hard towards that goal!(:

there are certain things that perhaps
others may never ever understand.
we may tend to look strong on the outside,
but actually deep inside, its the totally opposite.
you've hurt my friend. how can i ever make the
point across to you. whats really on your mind?
as a friend myself, i'm trying to hold on to the belief
that youre not such a person.
but your actions are slowly diminishing this belief in me.
not like it will help if i talk to you personally
because it didnt work the previous time.
dont let pride take control of you.

earn respect from people
and not expect people to respect you..

2008-01-31T19:02:00.000+08:00

is it an opportunity cost or an investment?
eew, thats so economics. whatever. lol.

have you ever been in a situation
where you try to trust someone,
eventually the trust is built up,
but in the end, it came crashing down,
cos you found out that actually
the person has all along been lying to you.
wah super sian.
at the end of the day, you cant avoid the person
because you still have to love the person.
but its like as though a knife pierced through the heart.
hahahaha life still has to go on yeah.(:

alrights.
there's an econs essay test tmr
and i have yet to prepare for it~
and i have tons of homework.
totally cant wait for chinese new year to come.

great friends in school make
school life so much more un-dead.
okay un-dead=lively.
but its not entirely lively. so yeah. un-dead.HAHA.
i always cant control my laughter after
crapping and listening to my friends jokes,
and end up laughing out loud in the lecture theatre.
and my enemy emma says im trying to attract attention.
that explains why she's my enemy.(:
and when the loud mix with the loud, you'll get a loudhailer.
so emma! you should know why i cant sit with you during lectures!lol.

okay! guess what?
my brother says he will be bringing a new com back for me!
which means SANDY CHARIS LIM XUE LI will be online soon! :D
okay bye!(:

i think i dont understand you enough.
either that, it's really you. hard to accept, but im trying..

2008-01-23T13:00:00.000+08:00

a short post before i go
for my geog lecture.

i cut my fringe yest
and im a depressed kid now.):
i really regret my actions
for laughing at camille
last time when she had
fringe shorter than mine.
cos mine is real short
and its very saddening.):
camille can laugh all she wants now.
but when i complained to her about it,
she consoled me instead!
wah camille is a changed person now.HAHA!
oops. but oh my. my fringe is horrendous.

was at the hospital on monday night
and i almost went to meet the dead!!
I WAS JUST A FEW STEPS AWAY
FROM THE MORTUARY...
wahh my life rather adventurous huh.HAHA.

anyway its tennis later
and i'm super excited for it!(:

ANYWAY EMMA LEE LAY JIA.
if youre seeing this.
PLEASE send the birthday photos
to chua ci'en AS SOON AS POSSIBLE la.
HAHAHAAHAHAHA. thankssss! :D

how long more?..

2008-01-21T16:13:00.000+08:00

Jesus Christ, I think upon Your sacrifice
You became nothing
Poured out to death
Many times, I've wondered at your gift of life
I'm in that place once again
I'm in that place once again

And once again I look upon the cross where You died
I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank You,
Once again I pour out my life

Now You are exhalted to the highest place
King of the Heavens, where one day I'll bow
But for now, I'll marvel at Your saving grace
I'm full of praise once again
Oh I'm full of praise once again

Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross, my friend

as i was on the bus journey
back home last night,
i was thinking about my
walk with God, feeling unhappy
with certain things about myself.
one night alone, isnt enough to
think about many areas in my life.
but im still thankful that He
spoke to me.
one down and more to go.(:

my child..
no matter how many times you fail;
you fail, you fail, and you fail again,
dont give up. because,
you are a success in my eyes,
and i know you can do it..
these words mattered a lot to me
because it gave me the motivation
once again to get up and move on.
my life is determined by how He
looks at me and not how
others look at me.

i experienced both extremes yesterday.
when i complained to xuanting
about certain stuffs,
to God speaking a little through ctm,
and much more when i met wendy
who made me learn so much from a new believer,
to finally, my bus journey home.(:

alrights!
just want to post some shout-outs/blessings
to a few people whom i receive on saturday!(:
1. i received a belated christmas card from
elton (sec1 boy) and i thought the content
was very sweet. not info-loaded but
i felt encouraged after reading it.(:

2. TRACY's card! (: thanks best friend!
anyway, i just want to share with you something.
i met a new-believer yest, and she shared
to me about her persecution she is facing with her mum.
in turn, i shared to her about your experience.
and she's encouraged by it and she even suggested
meeting up with you to ask you for some strategies!(:

3. my caregroup!(: they gave me a birthday surprise
and appeared with a slice of tcc cookies and cream cake,
a certificate of love, and a box of accessories!
i was really shocked yet surprised yet touched.(:

4. sathya! wahhh. i was indeed very very surprised
and touched when yongle told me you left something
for me. you succeeded in your birthday surprise!haha.
now youre stressing me for how i should surprise you!
but hey! THANKS A LOT! :D

anyway,
i had dinner with
my mum and brother on saturday night
to celebrate my birthday.
and OH MY GOSH, i totally
regretted wanting to go to chinatown!
i wanted to eat the frog porridge.
BUT.. i totally underestimated Singaporeans.
its like one month before chinese new year
and CHINATOWN WAS LITERALLY FLOODED WITH PEOPLE.
like as though it was chinese new year eve!!
and in the end, i couldnt eat porridge anymore
cos there were far too many people.):
ohwells, we end up eating at maxwell food centre
instead and it wasnt that bad.(:

okay!
i have like FOUR tests next week!
maths- integration and differentiation.
chem- ORGANIC CHEM.almost everything.
econs- market failure.
geog- i forgot.LOL.
WAHHHH. Jesus please come back now,
oh my. yeah, tracy youre right.(:
its a blessing that my birthday falls
just before the stress of jc2 sets in
like what you said.HAHA.

and anyway,
my whole body is itching very badly
cos my bed has a BEDBUG INFESTATION!
and i think i suffered for like THREE DAYS
before realising that i got bitten by bedbugs.
my WHOLE BODY has like small little red bites now.):
and its super itchy and ugly. oh wellsssssss.......

alrights. gtg soon!
shall end off with something funny.
chem and maths lecture was rather distracting today
because firstly TEO HUI MIN had to steal my jacket
and resulting me in being VERY COLD.
and secondly, my funny conversation with jinwei during lecture!

he was asking me some things about valentine's day (WAH like as though im very experienced huh.HAHA.)...
jinwei: i will be bringing her to shangri'la hotel this week for some buffet.
me: oh how much?
jinwei: $80++.
me: *SHOCKED* FOR ONE PERSON?!
jinwei: YA LA THEN? ONE COW AH?..
oh my gosh i was so embarrassed but i laughed so badly at it.
super funny! and this guy is crazy. its just a casual lunch
and not val's day celebration with her. -.-

talking about embarrassment.
i think i am SUPER DUMB!!!
but ci'en! i dont blame you for what happened la.
and youre not dumb okay?
i wanted to help.not your fault
so you are not to say yourself dumb!
i think i should be the dumb one.HAHA.

OKAY! got to go now! DONT MISS ME! LOL.

God, protect my friend from the evil evil satan..

2008-01-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

alrights.
i turned 19 yesterday!
time really flies fast man.
i was telling kamini yest
that i dont feel 19years old.lol.
and i received a birthday msg
from weisheng asking me
to enjoy my last teen year
before i hit 20!):

okayokay enough about the sad part.
all i wanna say is that
im really thankful and privileged
to have wonderful friends in my life!
THANKS to all for making my 19th birthday
a memorable one!
the many smses, birthday surprise,
blog entry by bestfriend(:,
dinner and supper.

i love my school friends!(:
thank you PCCK for organising
the birthday surprise for me.
i was really surprised and shocked yet touched.(:
thanks kamini ci'en peifen hannah huimin waikit
denise eeling emma marcus vishal ada gerald for the surprise.(:
it was really shocking to see all of you coming
together to give me a surprise cos it was so random!
thank you PCCK for the lovely tigger and cards! :D
and siti pamela vivien diyana and fadilah for the tigger cup!(:
HANNAHKAMSADI for the funny yet embarrassing card!LOL.wah i miss
those times where we had so much fun time together luh.
except the ______ club part.
AND OMGOSH EMMA LEE LAY JIA HAD TO ANNOUNCE
SO LOUDLY DURING LECTURE THAT DAY
THAT I WAS THE ______ CLUB PRESIDENT.):
and i was being made embarrassed by emma lee lay jia
again during yest's lecture cos she asked me to shut up.
a crowd just had to turn and look at me.THANKS EMMA.
i feel so loved being your friend.HAHA!
emma&vishal for the earrings and angel!(:
mellisa for the dinner on wed and the card!(:

oh ya.
during geog tutorial yest,
the whole class sang a birthday song
to me when i only know less than 10 people in the class!
and after that, this random girl wished me happy birthday!
thats what i like about innova- the people.(:

my friends made me realise
that im not a bad friend afterall.
i always feel that im not a good friend at all
because of my personality and sometimes my emoness.HAHA.
but they still accept me the same and love me the same.(:
thanks for letting me know who i really am.(:

anyhows,
my 19th birthday wasnt entirely perfect
cos im sick.lol.
caught the flu since tuesday,
followed by blocked nose, cough, sore throat and slight fever.
which explains why i didnt go to school today.(:
i was dying during lessons yesterday
cos i was super tired and super uncomfortable!

alrights picture up real soon!(:

to my friend:
everyone is not perfect.
which includes your parents.
sometimes our parents will fail us,
making us feel super lousy and unwanted.
i understand how you feel after reading
your post and would definitely
question why your parents will do/say
such things to you. but i also do hope that
you will not let this experience/sucky period
to have a changed perspective you have
towards your parents. im sure they love you,
just that they dont show it the way you
expect them to do so.
and i guess it teaches you
to be a better father in future.(:
cheer up friend!

YAY! SATURDAY TMR! I LOVE SATURDAYS!(:

once again, THANKS, to all my wonderful friends, who made my 19th birthday a memorable one. :D
its more than the surprise, more than the fun, more than the cards and gifts.
its the people that matters the most.(:

2008-01-14T12:22:00.000+08:00

as long as the river flow
as long as the wind blows
my heart belongs to You

as long as the seasons change
as long as the farmer needs the rain
my heart belongs to You

and Lord I know i dont deserve
the grace You give
so I will give my heart to You
that i might live

You are my God
early in the morning
will I, rise to meet You
rise to meet You

as long as babies cry
as long as flowers die
my heart belongs to You

as long as the winter brings the cold
as long as the summer come and go
my heart belongs to You

its another week of school!
and i slept at the earliest
time last night among
all my school days- 1130pm.(:

anyhows.
people always say
that when we grow older,
we become more skeptical
towards certain things.
esp more so towards religious issue.
experienced based VS knowledge based.

and there's something
really bothering/irritating me
which i am totally clueless of what to do.
perhaps the problem just lie with me la.
but.. i really hate it
when i know that somebody
always __________.
and yes, her swingish mood
has indeed hurt me inside.
i cant bring myself to
pretend that nothing happened.
but.. yeah im trying to forgive and forget
even though it always happen.
okay. ignore that.

what is meant to be yours,will be yours.
if it doesnt, no point dwelling on it.
MOVE ON..

and i keep finding out
a lot of things which i dont
want to know recently.
so irritating!

OKAY. IM NOT AN EMO KID! HAHA.
gtg for econs lecture now......

2008-01-07T12:04:00.000+08:00

Lord i lift Your name up higher
higher than the mountains
and the valley
Lord i lift Your name up higher
higher than any other name
and Lord i lift Your name up high higher
higher than all things upon the earth
and Lord i lift Your name up high higher
higher than all else

im currently in the
school library
and i got to eat
breakfast with mellissa
during break earlier! :D
im so happy i dont know why.HAHA.
oh and i talked to
mila's friend who was
in stmargs and she looked
really sad.):
but she's intending to
join the same cca as me!(:

i can totally
sense the revival in JCNA3!
way to go and all the way! :D

what is your conviction
in serving Christ?
why are you serving
even after so many years?
when matthias asked this question
last night,
it didnt take me
very long to answer.
and i said,
"cos i know its the
right thing and
because of God's faithfulness
in my life."

after matthias shared,
it somehow struck me.
that why isnt it
showing much in
my life.
and i guess i really
need to have the DRIVE
which will push me
to do so much more for Him.
i can spend this time of
my life in waste since
its the prime time
of my life that i can
do so many more things
in the world.
but since i've decided
to serve in this kingdom,
all the more i should
give to my utmost best
and not do things
sub-standardly.
of course, i've got to
keep praying and asking God
for that DRIVE.
till then,
i still hold on to the fact
that i will never ever leave
church because of the very fact
that God loves me and i should
do likewise.(:
I LOVE MY GOD!!! :D

i realise that
i havent reply tags for a very long time.
hahahaha. soon soon.

2008-01-02T16:16:00.000+08:00

i spent half of my day
on new year
at ci'en's house.
and i actually survived
without my handphone.haha.

we wanted to surprise
our boss, but it failed
so badly i dont wish
to talk about it.HAHA.
oh my tian! we were
super dumb please.
if only we were willing
to take the stairs,
then the surprise
will be successful!okay nvm.haha.
stayed around at his house
for a while, I PLAYED WITH STRAWBERRY!
okay no. i watched strawberry play
cos i was afraid she will bite me.lol.
by the way, strawberry is the name
of the hamster who happens to be
dark grey in colour.
we really have a weird boss.HAHA.
okay then we ate kfc,
went to ps to see him get his phone
then went home.

im so glad i spent time
with my mum.
esp when its new year.
had dinner with her
at tekka mall foodcourt.
and there was this
small cockroach i saw
which KEPT distracting me a lot.

first day of school today!
and i only slept at 1+am
the previous night cos i couldnt sleep.
so i was super tired today.
but im glad i saw peifen and kamini again!(:
and poor javier had to spend $60
dying his hair black
cos he got caught for his
hair in school today.lol.
and he had to miss like
half of the lessons to
go to causeway to do his hair.

econs lecture was replaced
by admin work.
so two hours of break in total today!
oh and guess what?
im the GP REP!
which means i have to
make myself love gp
and read the papers
like every day from now on!):
econs tutorial was horror.
all i can say is that
she didnt earn our respect
so its hard to respect her too.
seriously i dont understand
why do some teachers want to
teach when its not out of passion.
but anyhows,
GEOG LECTURE WAS THE BOMB.
mdm gowri is SUPER FUNNY!

alrights!
will be having clm at
yishun later!
it has been AGES since
we last had our clm
and im so excited for it! :D

im super tired now.
oh ya i still
have to meet weiloong
later to pass him stuff.
wheeee!

oh ya and i talked to
zixin over the phone
last night and i felt
so so so much better after
telling her everything
about certain things
that made me very affected
since a few days back.
and i guess i really need
to go clarify certain things
with the person.
after im feeling better, of course.

you can either make yourself very miserable, or make yourself very strong. both requires the same amount of energy..

2008-01-01T12:30:00.000+08:00

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours

Lord, I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through
Use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, all of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to You

What can I give
That You have not given?
And what do I have
That is not already Yours?
All I possess
Is this life I'm living
That's what I give to You, Lord

You see the depths of my heart and You still love me the same..

2008-01-01T02:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!
hahahah.
i dont know how to make that
sentence flow so whatever la.
anything lor. okay shut-up.

my last day of 2007
was very eventful.
i met rather random people.

met matthias in the morning
for brunch? haha!
and he is seriously nonsensical.
but i did learn from him
though it was only a short
period of time.
and i promise he is an ah pek!
shall not elaborate.
but he is a serious cheater bug la.
he made me rush home last night
cos he wanted to call me
but my phone no batt.
when i reached home
just after 30minutes,
HE FELL ASLEEP!!!lol.

met huihui and waikit at 2pm.
i got cheated by huihui!
i thought she said to meet
at 1pm, but she said 2pm!
so i had to wait for 30++ minutes for them.lol.
watched national treasure.
super nice!
played arcade with them too.
and out of the 4 times
we played daytona,
i got the last position 3 times!!!
i could have won once,
but at the last TWO seconds,
waikit crashed me. OH MY TIAN~

so after that,
i had to either choose to
meet yongle and gang
or go for victor's birthday party.
but i didnt go for both.HAHA.
i went to meet a secret person.
and i spent my entire night with
this person.
to YOU:
oh my gosh.
i really love you la.
thanks for being so courageous
to tell me your struggle and all.
and i could totally dentify with you.
i really thank God for you in my life.
and sorry that i kept from you
for so long.
but i totally enjoyed my time with you.
honest sharing.
and i think you really trust me a lot
to tell me all that you told me.
THANKS!

OH. and i went to somewhere near
esplanade to watch fireworks!
the place was SO CROWDED i couldnt breathe.
but the fireworks were awesome!(:
anyway i walked from istana park to
esplanade then WALKED BACK to ps eh.
not bad eh! HAHAHA.
wanted to look for yongle and gang
but i called him like a zillion times
but couldnt get through and i msged
him like twice but i think my phone lagged.

okay then i went to look for ci'en!
wah i also love you la.
thanks for accompanying me!
and kamini and peifen
for the conference! :D

oh my gosh
MY J2 TIME-TABLE SUCKS.
mon- 340.
tues- 410
wed- 210
thurs- 410
fri- 110.
my cca should fall on wed and fri
so the early dismissal is pointless.
WAHHH i still thought i will
be able to end school at like one plus please.
and my PE days are on tues and thurs.
which means PE ON THE SECOND DAY OF SCHOOL?!
and only one day break after the first pe
lesson to the second?!
i seriously G G alr.seriously.oh my tian..
3.2 km eh. and innova's pe is SICK la.
its back to me-kamini-peifen
thinking of reasons to skip pe again!LOL.
alrights i shall stop
dwelling on it.........

I AM GONNA CHIONG LIKE MAD TO STUDY LA.
CHIONG LIKE AS THOUGH STUDYING IS MY LIFE.
my knowledge of my subjects now
make me look like a total noob.
no wonder i have a noobster partner. HAHA!
BUT WAH SEROUSLY, I NEED/HAVE TO STUDY.
i cant be feeling so stupid all the time.

and after talking to the people i met today,
i've learnt a lot from them!
OKAY HAPPY NEW YEAR!
school's starting. everyone REJOICE.haha.

the height of my success
is determined by the depth
of my conviction.

when we expect too much,
the hurt will be even greater.

lose something to gain something better.

be true to your word, your work, and your friend.

practice what you preach.

anyway its 450am now! haha.
i can never sleep so late
from now on since school's starting.lol.

2007-12-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh
oh my gosh
oh my gosh
oh my gosh
oh my gosh
!!!

was having dinner with
xuanting zelanie and abigail
last night at ps mos burger
and they were stressing
themselves so much that
they stressed me!
im 18 years old,
turning 19,
and i'll be 20 in no time
and soon be 30!
time flies so fast!
zelanie said she only had
two weeks to study for her prelims
and she died cos couldnt
finish studying.
competition is so high that
people in j1 take SAT?!
and there wont be student benefits
after graduating!haha.
they just kept saying and saying and
saying and i couldnt help to be
stress too.
im beginning to regret
that i didnt study as hard
as how i should be during the holidays.

and i am SO NOT PREPARED
to go to school on wednesday...):
i cant face J2, its so scary!
and all my subjects are like
smiling widely at me
cos im always getting U.lol.
ahhhhhh..

anyway,
i went to meet ci'en after that
last night at 9+pm cos it was
too early for me to go home!haha.
so we went to potong pasir
to eat beancurd,
then went to the spider web playground.
talked about some stuffs,
and im so thankful for her company!(:
we'll go through school together yeah! :D
oh and we saw stars!! i love stars please.
okay, took the last train home after that.

wheee!
i cant wait for monday
cos i'll be meeting waikit and huimin
to catch a movie!(:
they wanted to study
but i managed to psycho them
to not study since school
is re-opening.haha!

oh i went to sentosa today
and im slightly red now! :D
and i saw linton!haha.

alrights.
im at my neighbour's house
now using the com but
the MSN got some problem!):

have you ever been involved
in a friendship where
you gave your best to it
and always initiate
but the other party
seem to not give a
two cents worth about it?
could it be your friend
does not treasure the friendship
as much as you do?
or perhaps i've been
doing far too much?
perhaps i need to retreat..
it just cant seem to be the
same as any other friendship
and i really wonder why..
this is the second
friendship which cause me
to feel this way.
two in a year too.haha.
ohwells..

thanks for making me
go through all these emotions..

2007-12-25T01:07:00.000+08:00

A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!(:
do you know the real meaning of christmas?
seriously i think there is no point
celebrating if one does not know
what the true meaning of christmas is.

anyhows,
im at mila's house now
with joanne ang!
stay over!
i know the combination is
a bit weird, but WHO CARES?
we're all family of God
so its totally alright!(:
anyway we're like pigging out
to the maximum point please.

and rarrrrrhhh.
i really cant take it anymore.
seriouslyyyy..
why do i even bother about you
when you totally dont appreciate at all.
it sucks seriously.
IT SUCKS.
all that i do and this is what i get
back in return? bleahhh.
i really cant take it anymore..)':
God, take this pain away..
well im thankful at least
i still have zixin to rant to.
THANKS ZIXIN!!!!!!!
i think youre the only one
who can identify with me.

anyway.
BEST FRIEND!!!!
TODAY IS
CHICKY AND CHICKLY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!
hahaha.
okay that was totally random.

aiya i forgot what
i want to blog alr.

oh ya!
yesterday was fun!
studied with
ci'en hannah david and yongle.
then ci'en david and me
went to chinatown for porridge for supper
and we went to explore some hill
and this hotel called scarlet hotel.
OH MY TIAN the hotel was own-ing please.
super nice!!!!!!!

i was supposed to meet
my noobster partner ci'en
to countdown today
but she couldnt make it last minute.

THERE IS A COCKROACH ALERTED
AT MILA'S HOUSE!!! ):
IT WAS SUPERRRRRRRRRRR BIG.
anyway its not killed yet.

christmas party on sat was cool!
I LOVE MY CHURCH PLEASE.
i love my God more.(:
but halfway
me and my emo partner-yongle
went to the back of the tent
and he started emoing.haha.

ALRIGHTS.
SORRY FOR THE RANDOM POST.

all i want for christmas is...

2007-12-16T14:26:00.000+08:00

am back.(:
will blog about camp in this post.

as mentioned to a few
of my close ones about camp,
truth is the camp was probably
one of my worst if not the worst camp
in all the camps i have attended.
many things happened.
i missed the whole of first teaching,
i sprained my right ankle one day
after my left ankle was healed.
huiying fainted twice
and was sent to the hospital.
i missed almost the whole of resonance.
i had to tolerate people.
and all the emotions that just
couldnt stop coming over me.
just the second night of camp during dinner,
i just broke down in front of winnie
while telling her all that happened.
she didnt say much, but i obeyed something that she said,
"why not tell God how you feel about all these
that are happening to you during p&w later?"
i did. i talked to God,
telling Him how tiring it is,
how i just want to give up and just finish it.
of course, God never fail to bring comfort to me.
He told me that i will NEVER fall
because He will ALWAYS be there to lift me up.
well, not many can understand what is
exactly going through in my life right now,
but you know what? My God never fail to
be there for me and i know full well
that He understands EVERY SINGLE thing
that im going through.

whenever we face problems and need someone to talk to,
of course we will want someone to identify with us,
understand us and not to tell us off immediately.
and im so thankful for xuanting throughout this entire camp
and even after camp.
thanks for understanding and being there for me.
both of us have our own struggles. similar ones too.
and im glad youre there for me all the time.(:

alrights time for pictures!(:

JCNA3! :D

minghui and me!(:
shes nonsensical and i love it.LOL.

me and weisong.
i have no idea how to describe this photo.HAHA!

i dont know whether to hate or love this photo.
but ahem! they TIPTOED la.
alrights doesnt make much difference also.):
yongsheng me samuelRAVI-my new friend.haha.

i love this picture too!
looks so kiddish.
but thanks for the help in mama shop guys!(:

elton and me.
he's the primary 6 boy i mentioned
last time who was shepherding his sheep.(:

nicholas weiloong xueyong
jianhao me.
9 out of 10 times they call me sandman
due to the influence and leadership of their leader.):

JC NORTH! :D

again!

me raphael hannah.
he smiles like a girl seriously.HAHA.

acting cute!

haha the photo looks wrong.
but its my fist and weisong's finger.
so no worries! hahahaha.
yongle weisong kester me hannah.

12 by april 2008!

best hair-do award. HAHA.
luke jianhao me.

i love this picture a lot.

mila shiyou me!
and i love the iced gems that
im holding la!(:

shepherd and sheeps.

POSERS ALERT.HAHA.

bernard and me!!(:
i still remember the very first time when i met him.
so vulgar and.. i was just scared of him.
but God has changed his life! i witness it.(:

my leader!
and yes, other than ministry stuffs,
most of the time i feel like punching him
cos he is seriously irritating and always cheat!HAHA.

me and hazel.(:

me and sinyee!

ahhhh whats with puiwah?): HAHA.

this girl is CRAZY i promise.
she KEEPS laughing at me!

friends for eternity.(:
she looks scared of me.HAHA.

zixin and me.(:

me and sathya. he's retarded i promise!HAHA.
and he should really stop calling me jolly shandy.):

ziying and me!(:
thanks for the company for a short while
during the last night of camp during resonance.

friends for eternity.(:

puiwah shiyou me jing'er.

this was totally random.

this was totally random too.

stmargs whoosh!

we hate goodbyes..):

JC district!!!

i love this family of God
so closely knitted unto us
youve taken me into your heart
and im so glad to be a part
of this great family..

heal my heart and make it clean
open up my eyes to the things unseen
show me how to love like you have love me
break my heart for what breaks yours
everything i am for your kingdom's cause
as i walk from earth into eternity..

OH MY GOSH christmas is like next week
and i havent even started with christmas cards!):
and whoohoo!
christmas service this year is at
THR ROCK auditorium at suntec city
and there will be a youth christmas party
at the palawan beach after that! :D
another memorable christmas! :D

2007-12-07T21:45:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh.
my life is like super tough.LOL.
(obviously joking.)
but..... ):
i just went to see the SINSEH laaaa.
since yest my ankle hurt.
the nerve at the back part there.
and so, my ankle is being bandaged now.
and guess what the doc say?
i cant jump, run etc for one week.
its totally fine if i dont have to run,
but i cant jump?!?!?!?!
then praise and worship how?)':
rarrrrrrhhhh. this sucks.

anyway,
im still contemplating if
i should stay over at ting's house tmr.
cos there's quite a number of things to be done still!
hmmmm...

alrights.
guess ill only blog after camp!
the old will be gone and the new WILL COME! :D

ci'en please take care when im away okay! (:

2007-12-06T00:08:00.001+08:00

three more days three more days
three more days
can you feel the excitement in me?!?!?!
if cannot also must can! haha.

am currently at cien's house!(:
decided to come over and accompany her
since her parents are away!

jc service tmr
from 5pm-7pm! wheee!

i finally got to meet up
with xuanting and talked
to her about some stuffs.
i made a promise to her
and i guess i have to fulfill it.
hahahah tough but yeah i will do it.
its for m own good anyway.
and i must definitely do it
before camp.

anyway, ive got some truths about myself
about myself which i have to share!

1. for those who know me well enough,
i am a quiet person. SERIOUSLY. im not joking la.
i know people like tracy kelly and sinyee
didnt believe during wfl on monday
when they found out that im a quiet person.
i talk when there's a need to
and to increase the atmosphere of the group.(:

2.i HATE DETEST HATE DETEST HATE cockroaches.
flying ones, non-flying ones i hate them ALL.
like what i said, i think God created
cockroaches when He was either angry or upset.haha.

3. i prefer listening to someone
than talking. haha. links to point 1 what.

4. actually im quite tired to think of anymore
points. cos the point i wanted to bring across
was point one. which ive done. so yeah. hahhaha!

alrights.!
i will reply to tags soon. :D

my conviction:
problems give us opportunities
to grow in a certain area in our lives.
so dont give up when you face problems!

the fragility of a woman's heart..

2007-12-02T14:58:00.000+08:00

grrrr.
my com isnt healed,
so i cant go online!
sorry peifen!haha.
and i doubt my brother
will repair my com
anytime soon.ohwells.

friday prayer meeting
at marine parade was fantastic.
it felt so camp-atmosphere~
as quoted by matthias. haha.
two sisters-in-christ from
the adult group prophecied on me
and both are words/vision
of encouragement!
initially when i prayed,
i decided to pray like jabez,
and i asked God to give me a word.
the word came, and it was FAITHFULNESS.
later on, when one of the sister
prayed for me, the word was confirmed.
she said as long as i have faith
as small as a mustard seed,
results will definitely come.
the second sister gave me a vision.
of me in a boat. rowing alone.
when i look at the waters,
it was sparkling.
and when i gazed to the sky,
i see lots of stars.
God reminded me that He is with me
even in times when i feel alone.
wah i couldnt helped but to tear after that.
God has been so good to me! :D

yesterday was a tiring day.
i couldnt sleep the night before.
slept at 130am.
woke up at 430am with a
completely blocked nose.):
my throat seemed to be very phlegmy too.
haha! is there such a word-phlegmy? lol.
i struggled to sleep after that.
and i woke up at 8+ am.
was supposed to meet shaun for breakfast
but he totally pang-sehed. haha!
went to nexus at 10am and started
preparing for the sales of camp shirt.
it was very messy and we ended everything
at 8pm. 0.o
i was so exhausted after that!
went to have dinner at meridien
then went fellow-shipping
with the rest of JCnorth till 9+
when most of them left,
leaving me yongle sherman behind.
left home at 10+pm.

matthias called me at 1+am
last night and we had a
40minute long chat over the phone.
thank you matthias.(:
thanks for re-assuring me,
and the encouragement you gave.
i can really see the effort in you
wanting to know and help me.
im in this together with you
and lets chiong together!
dont leave me behind!
and i really admire and respect you
as a leader too.(:

alrights!
will be meeting the JCnorth people
at city hall later!
to celebrate canice's birthday!:D
im excited for it!
a pity there's no more stay over.):

the coming week
is gonna be a busy one again!
but ill go through it
and im sure ill be learning a lot too.(:

oh yeah im reading a book now.
not really a book la.
but yeah.
i think the book is really good.
jabez prayer for teens.(:

ACTS29 CAMP IS IN SEVENNNNN DAYYYYSSSSSS!!!!! :DDDDD

2007-11-29T21:53:00.001+08:00

okay im at some random place
blogging now.lol.

anyhows,
i just want to thank a few people
in this post.
not in any particular order.

winnie:
i enjoyed talking to you
the whole afternoon earlier.
thank you for sharing so much to me.
and its always very comforting
to talk to you cos you
can always identify with me
yet giving advises and encouragement.
even though we are in different groups alr,
i know that even ten years later
our relationship will still be as strong
cos our friendship is God-centred.
you are truly a very humble person.
and when i listen to you talk,
i never fail to gain
new perspectives towards things.
5 years of friendship and still counting on!
thank for being part of my life.(:

xuanting:
it has been ages since
we last sat down and talk.
but thank God there is still
the mobile phone! haha.
people always say
we never fail to quarrel
when we meet. its true.lol.
but its those joke-quarrels
that just make people laugh
while we make a fool
out of ourselves. haha.
its a whole new leadership role
youre gonna take coming up.
i know its not gonna be easy for you,
but dont forget you still have me and Him to rant to.
thanks for always calling me
when youre discouraged/happy/bored/love-sandy-so-much-that-you-MUST-call-her-now,
and thanks for listening to me too
when im in distress.(:
10 years of friendship
(actually 5 to be exact.haha.)
and still to come!(:
thanks for being a part of my life.(:

zixin:
thanks for
helping me as much as you can
throughout this trying period for me.
despite your own problems,
you are still willing to
be in this with me together.
thanks for not giving up on me.(:

raphael:
(haha i doubt you know my blog.)
i truly admire you a lot as a leader.
although im not directly under you,
but you always make time to
talk to me online, being concern
about me and the group's growth.
im never afraid to share to you
my weaknesses/struggles
because you give people the trust
and try to help as much as you can.
thanks for always listening.(:

mila:
we havent talk properly in ages too.haha.
so you better come back home now!lol.
alrights anyway,
thanks for being a great support to me.(:
sometimes, being a listener is more than enough
and thanks for that.(:
thanks for always telling me how you feel
about things as well.
although youre like two years younger than me,
there is no sense of awkwardness at all.haha.
jiayou okay? im sure you will go far in this race.(:

alrights i shall stop the
thanks-giving here.
more next time.(:

botanic gardens was great!
planned my camp objectives
and camp challenge alr. woots.(:

alrights, i've got something to confess.
i never touch my book
since sunday please.lol.
aye, someone please stress me to study now.haha!

ill reply to tags soon! hahaha.

i love my God. :D

2007-11-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

back!

anyway guess what?
tmr is gonna be an eventful day!
1. going to the botanical gardens in the morning.(:
2. MEETING WINNIE CHENG YUN CONG! :DD
3. going to mustafa with jiamin minghui huiying!(:

finally after eons
im meeting winnie.
ive got so so so much to tell her,
so much to pour out,
and much to discuss about.
aiya i just cant wait
to meet her tmr la. :DD

and I CANT WAIT FOR CAMP LA SERIOUSLY! :DD

now now.
mila and xuanting are away.
life is so lonely without them.):
ahahahahahaha.
you guys better come home soon la.

oh yeah did you guys
read the news about
the five dragon boaters who
went missing and died?):
i think its super duper sad please.
sighhhh.

alrights enough of sad stuff.

went out with fenghui and abigail today.
and i was COMPLETELY drenched cos of the rain.):
but it was still a FUNN day with them! :D
laughed a lot.

tired and helpless..
but i know you will be there for me
and thats more than sufficient..

2007-11-27T16:13:00.001+08:00

hello! im back! (:
anyhows, short post.
im at huiying's house now.
we're gonna play mahjong soon! :D

oh this is random but,
i feel like becoming
a property agent instead
of a teacher now!!
hmmm, i shall go consult my brother
about it tonight. (:

alrights,
minghui wants to take over
posting in my blog.
here goessss...

HI IM MINGHUI her beautiful,clever,smart,intelligent,wonderful,gracious,sweet and you know!friend.

and i know that i love mahjong, therefore i shall proceed to playing it now! (:
BYEBYE ~!!

PS : SANDY LOVES ME!

2007-11-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

im back! hahaha.
oh and guess what?
i just realised its my 401st post! :D

define a friend:
i think a true friend is
one who walks in when
the whole world walks out of you.
and i think its super funny.
how can one say she is your friend
when you bitch about her?
hey, i think you've
got the wrong definition
of who a FRIEND TRULY IS.(:
i cant help but to laugh, seriously.
once again, the world is so queer..
hmmmmm..

alrights that was off the topic.
i shall post pictures of the
class chalet! (:

me vivien vanessa.

siti me ci'en.

:D

((:

whee!(:

self-timer 1!

self-timer 2!

smack ian down!haha.

in the room.
me ci'en vanessa.
ci'en kamini.
kamini peifen me.
at white sands.(: diyana in the centre.
((:
i promise ci'en is a camwhore. HAHA.
ci'en fadilah peifen me kamini.
group photo!
we wanted to have choc fondue but i failed badly.):
eddy liangjun pamela kamini.
i promise kamini LOVESS liangjun.
the card game at the room was CHAOTIC.
the girls screamed like MADD.haha.

okay! i cant blog anymroe
because i got to go!
i cant rearrange the photos!):